I have this urge to post my story because this is out of the ordinary for me.
I have a fiance and his best friend of 4 years was to be married February 20, 2009. Just before the day of his wedding my fiance got a devastating phone call. The man who was to be married had passed due to Bacterial Meningitis. So instead of a wedding, we attended a funeral a week after his passing.
Now I have never met this man or his soon to be wife, but I instantly felt a heaviness in my heart for the woman. I cried for the loss of someone I never met. So when I did finally meet her, I instantly felt I had taken her pain from her and instilled it into my self.
Now it will be two weeks tomorrow since this devastating loss and I still feel her pain. My fiance and I have discussed this and we have come to believe that since the relationship and love we have for each other is similar to what his friend and her fiance had, that maybe it affects me because I can't bare to think of what it's like to lose my soul mate.
Now here is the crazy part...
I was writing an e-mail to this woman and as I was writing, I felt as if I was being taken over by someone else. I wrote certain things I did not understand and I think it spooked her because she has not responded to me yet... I know she has read it and for some reason I anticipate her reply. I believe I am a vessel to her soul mate and I am his way to communicate to her. I also have this strong desire to take her pain away just so she can feel some what better but his pain I feel is beginning to become unbearable and I would like advice on what to do to either dull it or make it go away. I have cried and cried and my heart feels like someone has put a weight that I can not carry. Should I be strong for this woman? And if I am feeling what she feels then what can I do to help her?