At Night I See Shadows

By maddyof09
(1 stories) (1 posts) (the author is a young adult)
Date: 2010-03-10
Country: United States
State: Texas
Category: Visions / Trances / Altered States

Lately, I have been experiencing weird things. At night I see shadows. Sometimes I feel that I am being touched. Sometimes it feels like ants are crawling on me. I was sleeping but my mind was fully awake. This shadow it felt like it was trying to get inside me, like it was trying to rape me. Every time it touched me my whole body shook. It looked like I was convulsing. I could not wake up and in my mind I was thinking mom come and wake me up. I had the feeling like I was floating and then being pushed down. It was like I was awake the whole time because in my head I could see it. I was in my room and I know my eyes were closed. Almost like I wasn't in my own body. When my mom finally came to wake me up, it took five minutes to really wake up. I felt drained and I was still shaking.

I haven't been sleeping well for over a month now. Every time I feel it, my body starts shaking and sometimes I feel dizzy, sometimes I get a pang in my head almost like a quick headache, sometimes I feel nauseous, but in the end I just feel drained and unhappy. Other instances would be feeling like something is on my bed because I can feel the pressure of it and I'm a light sleeper so anything can wake me up. I don't hear anything and whatever it is doesn't talk. I just feel it and sometimes see it. At some instances it scares me so badly that I just start crying.

I did have PTSD when I was younger. I am adopted from Russia when I was seven. Nothing of this sort has happened to me before, except I do remember being in the orphanage and seeing this dark shadow when it was bed time and I was afraid of it, I hid under the blanket. But that is all that I remember about any shadows.

Many times I would randomly just daze off and not notice that I am doing it. I would just stare at something and my mind would be blank. I know that's normal but it has been happening a lot lately. I don't know what is happening. It seems like this thing is getting worse. As I sit here and write it I can feel the crawly sensation and my heart rate is going crazy. I do not know what to think or do, so any help would be great.

Thanks,

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WaterBoy (2 stories) (37 posts)

12 years ago (2012-01-17)

oh sorry for saying that you lied I am really sorry I will try and find out what it means

Spirited-away (5 stories) (46 posts)

12 years ago (2012-01-17)

[at] waterboy

Not ghost... There are some evil entities that will seduce men or woman in there dreams and feed of their spiritual energy. I believe the right term of an evil female entity to pray on male are called subaccus (forgot the spelling) but give it a tried, it would must likely take you to the right site.

WaterBoy (2 stories) (37 posts)

12 years ago (2012-01-17)

i don't think that's true how can a ghost sexaly abuse someone that's a lie

unicornssparkel (1 stories) (6 posts)

12 years ago (2012-01-17)

this sounds like a haunting, do you know why you went into care? That may be a clue. There are many kind of ghosts that sexualy abuse those who they haunt (their names slip my mind)

tigg3rxox (guest)

14 years ago (2010-03-28)

Im glad my advice helped:D.And congratulations on successfully communicating!

I agree with Coyotegirl. They might be your guides. I mean, you feel them in the light but see them in the dark. But do you just feel them in your room?

Because I have no idea if I have spirit guides or anything but, sometimes I just feel something watching me at random times. Then in the dark, it feels like I'm being watched but the feeling is so strong, sometimes my heart beats faster. Anyways that was a little about me and like an eighth of my life:P

Next,ask them why they're with you. If they're here to help you. Stuff along those lines. But since they don't speak, ask them to show you.Also,this is random but are you Christian? Because I don't what it is, but I'm getting a feeling you should pray to God what this is all about. I mean a little prayer wouldn't hurt;)

maddyof09 (1 stories) (1 posts)

14 years ago (2010-03-15)

Thank you guys. Lately I am not afraid of it anymore. I have tried to talk to it but it does not answer. There is more than one shadow though. One time I reached my hand out to see if it would do the same and I really think one shadow did. Then I told it politely not to try to scare me or touch me. That night I didn't feel them touch me. I never see the shadows in the light only dark but in the light I can feel them, their presence and sometimes when the touch me. I still wake up randomly and I don't know why or how I wake up but I remember doing it.

moongoddess1 (7 posts)

14 years ago (2010-03-13)

hey I hope your doing ok it seems that the shadow was with you since childhood so wherever this started is where you should start a personal investigation. Russia has had turmoil within the country for a long time and an unstable government and economy yeilds an unstable people. You should at least try to dig into the history of the orphanage itself, but given the population and living quarters in some areas you would almost have to have some political pull for certain records. If all else fails a lot of times physically speaking what you want with God energy, Ancestrial energy or Earth energy or all depending on what you believe in, and try to feel and believe your strength. Then tell the shadow they have no power over you, it might even help if it were russian words and if you feel that the intensity of this would be too much ask for help from loved ones good freinds local church members or preist. That is if you think your ready, but the longer you live with it allowing to instill fear it feels welcome to stay around. Pray, meditate and focus on yourself. I hope this helps you and hang in there don't be afraid and one thing I always remember is at least the shadow isn't a real person because only people in the living can hurt.
Peace

CoyoteGirl (1 stories) (8 posts)

14 years ago (2010-03-13)

It doesn't sound like PTSD, especially if it never happened before and never had a similar situation traumatized you. Perhaps you should try talking to the shadow? When a new entity enters my room, I always try to talk to it. I used to be afraid of them, but my fear went away after a while. The shadow could be your guide, ask it, he will give you some sort of sign if it is, whether it be in a dream or some other form. Do you see this shadow in other places besides your house? Because if it follows you around it's more likely your guide. The crawling I have no clue what that could be, in psychology I would assume the on coming of an anxiety attack or panic attack, but it doesn't seem like that to me. Maybe talk to a doctor about that? The only I could say about the dreams is I have similar dreams from time to time. You probably weren't in your body. I can tell you these dreams may be scary, but nothing is going to hurt you in these dreams. Sometimes what you see in these dreams are still in your room when you wake up, and sometimes they aren't. Also there is a chance that the entities in your dreams are just messing around, 'having fun' which can be scary for us. I hope this has helped some 😉

tigg3rxox (guest)

14 years ago (2010-03-12)

Wow.I don't know if I can help you but I daze off like you do sometimes. I stare at something then my mind is just blank until I realize it. Abou the shadow, try to talk to it. Sounds basic but I've been told that it won't hurt to give it a shot 😉.And if you need further help, go to my page and try talking to Oracle101.She's had her gift for 45 years I think?You'll see the name on my "favorite writers" section. Well I hope it'll work out.
~~tigg3rxox

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