Have you ever thought that you were crazy? That the voices in your head are make-believe and that life isn't what it really is? Well if you haven't yet caught on, this is how I felt for the longest time. I don't need help I just want to share my one of my many stories and experiences.
Last December had been one of the bleakest times of the year. The sky always seemed to be grey. It teased and tempted me. I wanted it to snow but I knew it wouldn't. It was Winter break and like most teenagers I craved something to do. So my close group of friends (Dwight, Nova) and I wanted to visit my recently moved friend (Sasha). So later in the day we did that. We did typical things nothing out of the ordinary.
But lately I was anxious to be around Dwight because he had a horrible evil demon hanging on him constantly. I always felt him around due to the energy. But Nova could see him she never asked questions about it in until Dwight brought it up because he could see it too but he said it had been around him for years.
I didn't like this thing nor did Nova. It stood for everything I despised. It took my energy away and fed off my misery. I was always sad around Dwight due to that thing but he was my friend I will do whatever it took to be there for him.
Anyways, we were all hanging in Sasha's room listing to music. Then Nova became withdrawn from the group and sat in a corner. That's when I felt the great pain and misery. It had entered the room.
I'm empathic. I too started to feel withdrawn and joined Nova because she was frightened, she needed me. Dwight and Sasha were becoming involved they had no idea what was going on. Meanwhile I was trying to fight this thing but something inside of me exploded. I got angry. I was NOT going to take this. I was pissed and I thought how DARE you! WHO DO YOU THINK IAM!? (this is all in my head) My heart was beating faster. Then a dark cold engulfed me and fear bellowed and racked the insides of my body. I never show fear and I didn't. I started to think about God. I prayed for help.
It said something. It was talking to me. TO ME. I had never talked to anyone I only listened to the conversations. This is what was spoken.
-YOUR GOING TO DIE. YOUR GOD MEANS NOTHING.
All the angry blew out of me I was left with an eerie calmness.
-I'm sorry you feel that way.
He repeated itself.
-I'm sad for you.
Then somehow, I think naturally I built a wall to keep him out and the others out. It was quite. So beautifully quiet. Then I felt a power take inside of me then I wrote the entire conversation down on paper. I got up and threw it at Dwight hitting him in the face. Then at that precise moment I snapped out of it. I thought why did I do that. Normally I would never do anything of the such. Nova gently shoved me and said
- My mom said that you were talking to it. Stop (her mom is one of her spirit guides she died 5-7 years ago) .
Dwight in the mean time read the paper and exclaimed
-Jesus! What the h@8l were you thinking!?!? Never talk to that thing again!
-I don't know what happened. I just don't know.
I didn't want to talk to it ever again. Dwight went back to his business with Sasha. I felt it glaring at me. His face was burning into the back of my head. I knew that wasn't going to be my last confrontation with that thing. Things started to feel lighter in the room. We all filed out and went and raided Sasha's fridge just like nothing happened. Just like regular teenagers. Eventually the visit ended and we all went our separate ways.
I have been on my guard ever since that day. I have met more like it but lesser ones. But that's for another 2am. Its been six months give or take since acknowledging it. Since then I've meet one of my spirit guides, seen auras, and been having premonitions. I can't always keep the voices out but I'm working on it. Last December happened for a reason it opened my eyes to a whole new world that breathes and lives around us all.
Thank you for your time. Feel free to comment or such.