Hey everyone. Name's Andrew. Recently, I've been getting these strange minor bursts of anger and depression. Sometimes, I become really silent. It's almost like a depressed silence. I just don't talk because I get that "down in the dumps" feeling. Other times, I get extremely angry and maybe I throw something small or kind of start yelling. It could be an anger issue, but could it also be something else? Like last night, when I went to play my PS3 - it wouldn't work because I just used my sister's TV with HDMI but my TV isn't HD - I was so angry that I yelled at the top of my lungs for a decent amount of time. I scared my cat and now I've got an injured diaphragm.
I really had thought nothing much of it, until last night and again today it got a little more weird. Whilst showering, I got the urge to bite my arm (sort of up near my wrist, on the under side of my arm). So, I did. I didn't bite hard, it was an urge that was pretty easy to resist. I just wonder what it might have been (also, thought it was worth noting that I don't think I am becoming a vampire unless someone more knowledgeable might think so). While I had actually had my teeth on my wrist, I remember thinking to myself "Wow, what is going on?" So that was odd.
Also, a bit earlier than that I had a vision of some old Victorian mansion. The mansion was in a setting similar to something that looked like it was out of an 'Old West' movie. I saw a field of grains, but that's about it. Furthermore, It wasn't just a vision, it was a complete feeling of deja vu. As soon as I felt that I had been to that house before (even though I didn't actually recognize it), the vision faded as quickly as it came. The total vision lasted about five seconds.
I don't know, it just seems like these few events were a little too odd to ignore. Also, this is my first story on the site! So, hope someone can offer advice and also hope you enjoy the read. I'm really quite clueless and am sort of feeling a little crazy. So, that's that - Later everyone. Thanks for reading.
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I won't give you any advice on your daily behaviour, except to say, have you ever considered how you feel spiritually? Your vision of a field of grain could be defined in two ways:
1) You are seeing the heart of God, and therefore your vision of a field (ie. Sowing and reaping) could be it's time for you to repent and receive the Lord Jesus Christ.
2) Maybe you are being invited to do God's work and often in times like this we can feel scared and unsure of our own reality. At times we have to pay a price in terms of money, time, energy, etc. (Psalm 126:5 "Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy")