Did I Predict This?

I wish to share a story and ask a question of you.

I am currently sitting in the computer room of my childhood home. This place I swore to never come back too.

I haven't been home for 3 years. About 4 months ago I had a dream that I was sitting in this very chair, but I was furious for an unknown reason. The odd part to me then was that I was here. I didn't take into account that I was angry. I discussed this dream with a friend of mine. The dream worried me because I experience deja vu pretty constantly (Enough to stop being surprised by it), but I never remember my dreams. Within' 1 month I was given an opportunity for travel and potential growth in my life. From taking that opportunity my life has fallen. I am living at home. No money. No property to my name. Nowhere to call my own.

About a week ago I found myself sitting in this chair cursing the world for putting me here. Funny turn-out if you ask me.

In just that week I have cleared my mind and allowed myself to be aware that I allowed this to happen and I am the only person who can change it. Through this experience I have learned that I didn't appreciate what I had enough.

That is my experience. My story.

My question is:

I have been aware for a few years that I am an Empath as you call it here. I didn't know the term I just figured out what was going on. Anyhow.

I grew up very sheltered. My hometown has about 500 people in it. Still in this small amount of people I was deemed the weird one. I was picked on by the other children and even parents. Being put down by all around me I withdrew into myself and didn't socialize until my late teens. What affect has this had on my spiritual development? Am I ahead or behind? How do I close the distance?

This question is very important to me.