I have no idea if this is an entity or I'm just going crazy and it doesn't happen very often at all, but when it does I wake up in the middle of the night as though something purposely woke me up for this. After I am woken up I usually take a drink and lay back down or adjust slightly, but then the second my head hits the pillow I feel like oxygen is just blowing through my lungs and back out but not actually absorbing into them, my heart feels like its floating and fluttering with half beats but not completing the beat, and every sound is so loud it sounds like real and hurts my head and ears.
Also, sometimes this begins to happen mid-dream, completely destroying my dream, making it twice as hard to fight as I am already weakened by being fully asleep. During this struggle (when it happens mid-dream) and since I was little, this dream has been pitch black with blurry police lights flashing, Like I am blindfolded but can vaguely see the lights (Almost as though I'm dead but can see the lights through my eyelids). I feel my eyes being pulled shut and it feels as though my soul is being pulled through the bed. My eyes don't shut all the way and it feels like my sub-conscious is fighting that bit for me but it takes every ounce of mental stamina that I have to keep them from shutting completely as well as to try and move.
While I am struggling to keep my eyes open it feels like something is pulling at my soul harder and harder until I can finally muster enough strength to move a muscle. That seems to break the hold for a few seconds but I am too drained to move anymore after. As though it senses this it will sometimes go for round two and apparently three like last night but it feels as though whatever is doing this is weaker as well. During all of this I feel pure terror, its literally the most afraid I have ever been.
Last night was the first time I have had to fight it 3 times in a row and I fear its getting worse and desperate as well as stronger. Desperate and stronger being that its getting more frequent (2nd time this month, usually may only happen once a year maybe twice) and it tried a third time last night.
I am scared beyond belief of what will happen if one of these times I don't have the mental strength to fight anymore or if all of a sudden my sub-conscious can't hold my eyes open any longer. It feels as though if my eyes shut, its game over. I don't know if this is to fear an entity trying to steal my soul, if it is a test of willpower from a bored soul, if I should let myself fall into this to see what lies ahead, Or if this death like how people die in their sleep. What I do know is it finally scared the hell out of me enough to seek help.