Getting into to all the psychic stuff has its downsides. There has been so many times I feel I should ignore spirits and pretend not to see them, when I wish I didn't know things others didn't, and when I wished I could tell my best friend everything.
My biggest issues are the spirits. Becoming psychic means spirits are included. It's a package deal. They want things from me. And they freak me out. I don't sleep well at night, I'm afraid of the dark! This is ridiculous. And wish there was a way to shut them out completely! I don't even know if that's possible.
But this is the part that really bothers me. Anywhere I am a, there's going to be at least one. For example, any house that I stay at has usually more than 1 spirit. And the houses I am at often such as my house, friend's house, or family's' houses, are either crazy filled with spirits or have a very active spirit/s. And I know that its not just the spirits following me, because there are different one at each house.
Am I just noticing all these spirits, is something happening to make these many appear? Is this normal?
I haven't even seen this many during Halloween. Which makes me wonder if something really important is happening. There are 5-6 spirits at my grandma's house... God only knows why. There are 3 at my friend's house and 2 at my aunt's house and the surprising thing is, that half of all these spirits, I can't guarantee are demons.
which brings me to this: Am I Next?! This is the part some of you may be able to help me on. So, out of the people included in all this drama (my 2 cousins, my friend, and I) I am the oldest and the one gifted with the most and the strongest abilities. Which may be an important factor. Both my cousins, and my friend have been possessed. Yes, possesed. But there's were only minor (lights on, nobody home. And barely talking exhausted and no memory of things that happened after their strange behavior) But when my cousin Victoria was possessed it was more serious. She was crawling on the floor (not creepily) and Lizzy just thought she was playing but I knew better. Her eyes were dilated and she was unresponsive. We later gave her a paper and marker. She wrote: the ghost is holding my lips, its making me weak. Lizzy is catholic so she did a ritual thing she eventually passed out. When she woke up she said that she didn't remember any of it except crawling in the dark and when she scratched and kicked us when we tried to carry her. She said she didn't want to do that, someone was controlling her. And apparently she was dreaming but she was awake.
By now she's crying and tells us about her dreaming about looking at a sea of sparkling water and someone pushes her. And then she said she heard us saying her name but she was drowning.
So I'm wondering. Am I next? Any comments? Please answer my questions. I need help.