I've been reading on this site for several months and wanted to start sharing some of my experiences. I am looking forward to any feedback on how to manage / fine tune these abilities for the greater good. Thanks for your feedback.
Lucid Dreaming: I've been a lucid dreamer since age 5 or 6 which is the furthest back I can remember having dreams where I was awake in the dream. I did not realize the power I had in my dreams until I got into my early thirties and started working on controlling my dreams which I have become good at. I'm sure I've had hundreds of lucid dreams to include the crazy sounds that occur when you are entering or exiting the dream. One night I heard a sonic boom so loud I woke up and ran outside looking for the source of the explosion! It was around 2am in the morning and the outside was just as quiet as could be and I surely felt foolish. Typically I hear the clapping/snapping sounds at the beginning or the end of the dream. My most memorable lucid dream was one where I woke up in the dream to myself flying around the outside of the Earth with a group of beings. I could not see them but I knew that I had been flying with them upon my waking within the dream. Once I realized I was awake in the dream, I started to lose my ability to fly and started to rapidly descend towards the Earth. In my mind I was trying to remember how to fly so I could get back with the group who had since stopped to wait for me but it was not working and I was falling back to Earth faster and faster. The group told me that the effort should not come from my mind, but rather my heart. Once I took that in I stopped falling and slowly started to float back up to the group. Once I reached their level, we started flying together again very slowly so I could keep up. The group did not "tell" me anything with words, but their instructions just appeared in my mind if that makes any sense.
Buzzing sounds: I am 37 and started noticing other abilities becoming active in my early thirties. I've been dealing with these buzzing sounds that started in my right ear but moved to my left and alternate between the two. There were a few instances where it sounded like a voice was trying to break through a bad radio channel. After reading on this forum and other places I started praying/meditating, "I can only hear those voices from The Father". I'll repeat this over and over until the buzzing sounds stops. Up until about a month ago the buzzing was happening several times a week but after I started the prayers, it has virtually disappeared. Fast forward a month and the buzzing sounds are back but immediately stop after my prayer. I wish I knew why these buzzing sounds are occurring but I don't want to know if the information is not something my Creator wants me to entertain.
Seeing Entities: My mother saw spirits from the age of 6 to about 14 as a child that frightened her beyond belief. To this day she is VERY resistant about talking about it and for whatever reason, she is one of the few people I cannot see an aura around. The story was that her father bought a cheap house where a woman had been murdered and my mother described seeing the ghost of the murdered woman floating up and down the stairs at first. This woman was peaceful. Later, the woman disappeared and an evil man took her place. She described the man from childhood as the epitome of evil. She says he used to come to her room every night and spend hours terrifying her. She has continued to see entities in the different homes we've lived in (here and in Germany) but nothing like what she endured during childhood. I always prayed that I did not inherit her abilities.
This year I saw what I believe to be my first entity for lack of better term. I was sitting in bed with my husband one night and I looked up to see this white wavy light that was about 2 ft L x 2 ft W hovering in midair right next to my side of the bed. It was not round but more of a curvy, wavering parallelogram shape. It freaked me out to see this thing just appear and disappear in midair but I didn't feel fearful inside when it appeared to me. This has not happened again. What was it?
Auras: I've been able to see auras since childhood but I originally thought nothing of it. When I was younger I would play with my eyes and start seeing colors around different people and thought, "hmmmm, that's interesting"...but my childhood was traumatic and abusive so I never was able to focus on much besides the chaos of my family. Fast forward 30 years and I can see all kinds of auras. I am not seeing the entire aura according to my studies, just one layer around the person. My aura is yellow, my husband's is primarily green but I've seen yellowish green and I've seen bluish clouds around his head and upper torso when he is thinking. When I watch people give speeches at my job, I notice mostly blue clouds around their heads...I've also come across people with aqua or blue green auras. There is one co-worker I run into at the ladies room often. She also has a yellow aura. During one discussion, as I listened to her speaking, I noticed her yellow aura growing and reaching toward me! I kept asking her questions to keep her talking just so I could see what her aura would do. It became larger than any other aura I've seen and it was as if it was reaching to blend with my aura. It was wild stuff and very pretty. The other day I met an NFL player in person and was within a couple feet of him as he gave a speech to this children's group I work with. His aura was yellow and I was astounded that I could see his after having never met him before that day. I just wish I understood what it means. I also really need to understand why I can't see my own mother's aura! I am thinking she must keep her aura very tight to her body. Maybe it is easier for me to see people with a common aura color?
Empath: I'm not sure if I can remember when this started or if this has been with me since the beginning. As a child I was always told that I possessed the understanding and comprehension of an adult but it wasn't until I came across this term that I realized I may have empathetic abilities/qualities as well. I've always been in tune with the emotions of others and once I started analyzing this quality, I realized that in certain instances, I had allowed people with negative energy to drain my own. I've had too many conversations with people where they leave feeling better than when we began and I leave depressed beyond words for no apparent reason. After researching the issue, I started keeping a protective bubble around myself so that I can relate to people without having them drain my energy. I am an introvert that can put on the social face when needed, but I typically stay to myself to avoid dealing with people and their energy issues.
Just this year, I've started to have some physical symptoms that seem to go along with the empathy. There was one morning where I had this subtle sick and nervous feeling for no apparent reason. My skin started itching out of the blue and whenever that happens it is an indication that I am stressed. The odd thing is this itchy skin has started to occur before something stressful is going to happen. For example, the incident that really woke me up to this occurred earlier this year when preparing for a monthly meeting. We had already been told the CFO would not be able to attend but all morning I had this sick nervous feeling out of the blue for no apparent reason. After a few hours of pondering what this could be, I decided that the CFO must be planning on attending the meeting after all. Well, don't you know that a few minutes after the leader of the meeting once again confirmed the CFO would not be in attendance, Mr. CFO walks through the door and during this meeting he brought the pain. Thankfully, I had already settled in my mind that he would attend and I was ready for his questioning. After the meeting, the sick feeling and itchiness went away. A month later I had another strange situation where a thought came through my mind that I would get into an argument with my brother-in-law. I couldn't understand why I would think something like this because the two of us do not live together or have much interaction or disagreement. That very Saturday the fight occurred. It was almost as if I felt like something was preparing me for an event I could not stop. I was SO disappointed in myself that I got an insight into something bad happening but could not prevent it from transpiring! Why would I be given an insight into something like this but not the ability to change a future event? A similar situation happened years ago. I was walking back to work from lunch and right before I walked into the lobby of the building I got the insight that I would fall down. Moments later I fell flat on my rump right in the middle of the floor in front of the elevator bank. MY CFO at that job walked out of the elevator at the moment I fell and helped me up. As he was helping me, I felt like I was in another reality watching him help me up and being in total shock in my mind that I had just seen this event mentally but again, had no power to avoid the fall.
Blue Light: A few weeks ago when I was just shutting my eyes to go to sleep, I saw this dancing blue light. This beautiful royal blue light was dancing all over the place behind my eyes. I was very tired but when this light came behind my eyes I could not ignore it. It was like it had a life of its own and it was dancing all around behind my eyes. I tried to follow it but I could not anticipate where it was going and it started to freak me out so I opened my eyes, rubbed them a bit thinking I must have been watching too much TV or computer screen. When I closed them the blue light was right there dancing about. At this point I started getting scared and it went away. What in the world was that?