I think I should let you know that I am nowhere close to being religious but I used to be a long time ago. I was the demure little Church goer, choir girl who was always on time for Sunday Mass. I was an ardent believer in the Roman Catholic Church. Along the way somewhere I lost my faith. Partly because my faith couldn't make those entities in my house go away and it couldn't give me the protection I required but that's in another story for another time.
I need a little help with another dream I had. Some religious leaders believe it's a calling. I don't know what to make of it really.
The dream was very lucid. My husband, his girl cousins and his first sister (the girl born just after him, he has two sisters) and I had gone to this lovely beach. Me being the real water baby I run to the water followed by the other girls. I was swimming in the deep and the others were splashing about.
Suddenly we found ourselves standing on wet sand and the water had receded far back. My husband, who was just a tiny speck on the beach, kept flailing his hands and yelling for us to return to the shore. I waved back. The other girls laughed at him.
We heard the sound of water above our heads and we look up and see this Tsunami. The girls scream. I yell to them to try and swim to the top of the wave. Somehow we manage to get to the top (thank goodness this was a dream) and the current kept pushing us towards the jetty. I yell to the girls to move with the current.
As the waters slow down slightly, a boat comes to where we were and gradually comes to a halt. Then a humongous opaque hand parts the skies and scoops us out of the water and puts us on the boat. Then I hear a booming voice, almost thunderous say "You don't have faith in me and yet I have proven myself to you time and again!"
I woke up trembling. I couldn't get back to sleep and I was very disturbed for a week or so after that. I spoke to religious leaders of different religions and they all told me this was a deep spiritual dream that not everyone has and it is definitely a calling for higher things of life. "God" wants me to regain my faith in Him. I am struggling with that right now. I don't know if He is real or not. If this was my subconscious. If it is my guilt eating into my unconscious. Please help me figure this out.