I'm a tortured soul. Highly negative, always ill and have decided I have the worst luck ever. The catch, I have never been like this before, I am now 21 and have been dealing with it since I was 16. I have been on medications for depression and anxiety that do not help, seeing as I don't think I am depressed. I was a happy child, into sports and school with many friends.
My first experience with the paranormal I was 11 and my life was drastically changing; my family was broke, evicted from our rental property and my great grandfather and dog had passed away within 2 weeks of each other. The night before we were due to be gone I saw my grandfather and dog side by side in my closet. I vowed from that day on to never allow my mind to go there and that's when it all started.
I don't have many friends for the fact I can't stand to be around people for long. I tend to "faint" when around somebody highly emotional, I lose focus, I can't hear anything and slowly black takes over my mind. I have a weird sense of "knowing" what people around me intentions are. I often pick up my phone before it starts ringing. And am very connected to the people I am around a lot. I know when somebody's lying to me and I never feel really "alone" even when I'm showering. I don't sleep well and always have a flood of emotions that have nothing to do with me and MY feelings at that moment. I cry for no reason. And feel extremely sad about the world's problems. People often spill their deepest secrets to me even when we just meet. I have always been told I have uncanny common sense and am extremely bright but I don't feel that way. I feel like I carry the world's burden. On my shoulders and I don't know what to do.