I really hope I am posting on the right Page, I'm still fuzzy from what the doctors say are "seizures" so if I'm not on the right page I apologize, but this last incident is why I am posting. (also my spelling is horrible and I apologize in advance)
I feel that both myself and my son are having psychic overload and I need help so that I can help him.
I'm pretty sure that I have psychic abilities. All the women, on both sides of my family have all had strange abilities or "incidents" with psychic phenomenon. I'm pretty sure that I am an Empath. I'm constantly being told I am anyway. And I am starting to believe this because my emotions are very out of control with sudden bursts of different types and going from one person to another they will change my emotions. I can help people feel relieved from pain and sadness as well. For a long time I thought I was just a good listener but remembering things from my childhood and particular incidents eventually made me realize them talking a lot was just another effect I had on people. I also believe my abilities go far beyond this however my empathy is the only ability that has been constant. I have had the occasional premonition (always something insignificant) I can occasionally tell someone's story by touching one of their objects, and I swear I can often tell what people are thinking and whether or not they are telling the truth or not. All these things tend to make me feel like I am crazy, and being mental illness is common in my family (especially mood related) I have been reluctant to even believe that these abilities are real, I've severely repressed my abilities out of fear that they were not abilities at all, and merely just a disorder. I have even developed epilepsy which just reinforced my thought that maybe my abilities are just a medical issue and all imaginary. However almost a gut feeling has always told me otherwise.
If these things are actually psychic phenomenon then my son has the same issues. And the issues he is having are severely impacting his life. He has been labeled with high functioning autism, however he doesn't have difficulties unless he is around a large amount of people or someone who is highly emotional. It's almost as if he amplifies the emotion of the person he is near. If that person is happy he is OVERLY happy/hyper, if someone is sad then he is so depressed he talks of life as if it's a burden. He's 11, and other than my divorce nothing traumatic has happened to him and his father and I are very close friends. I feel the lack of my psychic knowledge is what is inhibiting me from helping my son. My families elusive behavior when it comes to these things does not help. There is no psychic guidance. I have personally pushed what I am now believe to be abilities so far down that I feel it's what has caused my development of epilepsy (I will enter a trance like state only to come out of it feeling drained) The only reason they say its epilepsy is due to the tests they did but every time they've done one, I've had to fast and be sleep deprived. Isn't that what tribes people will do to put themselves in a trance like state? Other than the spikes in my brain I have no other typical symptoms of epilepsy. My symptoms are so sporadic that doctors think I'm making it up. I'm not crazy.
I can bring on these "epileptic" episodes when I try to concentrate on using an ability. When I try the tests on this website, like the esp one with the guessing the numbers, I got 4 right in a row and then, bam, trance like state to where I can no longer function. I'm stuck and I lose my "connection" It's as if I have a block or an overload and my brain shuts down. Is this what is happening to my son when he says he cannot control his emotions? Is this an overload or lack of knowledge in how to use or control our abilities?
Please We need help.