Firstly I would just like to state that I am new to this site, but I've seen a lot of people post stories they need help with here, so I was hoping someone may be able to offer me some help too.
I am younger (in my teens) and I haven't been actively meditating or doing a phychic tasks that often, it is rather new to me.
My mother has very strong phychic "powers" (I'm not quite sure what to call them) and can easily see things (she used to attend classes that helped her improve but even before that she's just been very good). Because of that, I guess I got inerested and also assumed I may have some level of "power" too.
Months ago, I tried phsychic meditation for the first time, and although I was quite prepared and done a lot of research beforehand, I faced a problem that no matter how much I research, I cannot find anything about.
After closing my eyes (and opening the "metaphorical door") I almost instantly began to have a very intense surge of sorts. My heart rate was soaring (like I'd run a marathon) and my eyelids were flickering and I couldn't control it. All I could see at that moment was white.
Eventually I snapped my eyes open and shut everything down but it terrified me so much, especially because that was the first time, and it was like I was having a seizure.
I asked a friend (who is very in touch with these things) about what happened but she didn't know completley, she just told me it was a kind of surge, and that I shouldn't meditate again until I get it under control. I don't understand how I can get it under control anyway...
I tried meditating few days later after that but I think I was just too afraid to delve too deep so I wasn't really focused and nothing happened in that session.
Today I thought I might try again to see if I could get it under control, and I tried extra hard to be more focused.
Already my heart rate went up again, but I was doing okay (this was all in the span of about 10-20 seconds). After a few seconds I felt like I was looking at something else but it was all red and black and violently pushing at my eyes if that makes sense? And it was overwhelming and I could feel my eyelids doing the flickering things again...
Again I just shut it all down but I had a slight headache and the backs of my eyes ached afterwards for a little while.
Is this normal? How do I get it under control? I don't want to be afraid of meditation because I believe it could be benefiting, and I could be quite good.
Plus, on a seperatish note, sometimes when I'm trying to fall asleep, I begin to see things (colours, shapes) and usually I just open my eyes and shake it off, but when I feel daring I hold onto it/concentrate on the images and it begins to escalate but the same kind of intense thing I explained earlier happens to me, so eventually I just give up.
Any help would really be appreciated, thankyou so much. Sorry that I don't know much because I'm new to this, but I'm willing to learn.