About 6-7 months ago my powers (only one, which I've identified as telekinesis) developed, and since then I've come to accept that not everything can be explained by science. For a while I was trying to get rid of them, but I turned myself around when I realized there was no chance of that happening. Instead, I tried to work on growing my abilities and learning to release my emotions in a healthy way to keep from exposing myself.
Recently, my powers have been growing stronger, but slightly beyond what I intended them to (when home alone, I've been doing exercises, practicing using them, etc). And I keep feeling this lingering sensation, almost as if I was preparing to use my powers, even though I don't want to. It happens when I'm in class, walking outside, in my room, basically anywhere and at any random time.
And there's a sensation that's even worse when I'm emotional, I feel my veins burn and it's like I'm trying to shove all of my anger and shame and fear down before everything spills over. It feels suffocating. I've been managing, and haven't experienced any incidents or episodes over the past 4 months, but I'm trying to figure out what this is and how exactly to stop it from taking over. Last time I felt something similar to this, back when I was first showing signs of my abilities, it led to me nearly destroying my kitchen, and just before my little brother got home. He could've found out, or worse, I could've hurt him badly.
Is this just my anxiety or am I really on the brink of losing control? Any advice?