Recently, I posted to this website. I was skeptical and didn't believe that "abilities" existed, but I've since come to acknowledge that they obviously do. This brings me to my main question- how can I stop myself from using them?
Over the past month I've gotten better at using them when calm, and I can lift a few objects. But when I'm experiencing emotion, whether it be extreme or not, is an entirely different story. Unexpected things happen. And those things are more powerful. I've come to the conclusion that my abilities are directly tied to my emotions, and therefore the more upset I am, the stronger they are.
And just this week I had an incident. I have a bad habit of holding back what I'm feeling until I explode. And in a major way too. Thank god I was home alone at the time but- I had some sort of episode. I used to release my powers over time, and unconsciously use them, but this time I knew I was using them. I knew I was using them, but at the same time I felt out of control.
So I guess that's my question. I instantly regretted what I had done. My sister's going to notice the missing plates and glasses. It's only a matter of time before I mess something up, or before something really bad happens. When I last posted here I was told to "embrace my abilities", but I don't think I can. Obviously I can't just get rid of these powers. If there was a way, please comment that way. But otherwise... If you could give me tips on how to hold back from using them, that would be great.