There is a wide and varied story, but the bottom line is I'm scared and I don't know where to turn. My mother during my childhood and her mother before her had a gift, could contact and interact with spirits. I was young so I don't know the details but she made many predictions including her own death. She passed away when I was 11 I am now 26 and have a 3 year old girl of my own.
When I was a child I had a friend for many years. I remember her vividly until one day when she said it was time for her to go. Her name was Sally. I asked my step father a few years ago what happened to Sally and he refused to go into the conversation beyond 'she was your imaginary friend and thankfully you grew out of it before I got the doctors involved'.
My three year old has now started talking and playing with a friend and when I asked her who she was talking to she just says 'you know who. It's Sally'.
In August I suffered a severe stroke-like illness, severe migraines, seeing colors around things, noises in my ears like hissing and buzzing, intermittent paralysis down one side, loss of memory, frequent irresistible sleep so deep I cannot be woken from it (very scary for my partner) but after extensive testing and scans nothing can be found to explain the illness. It's been put down to stress.
I've been gaining an increasing awareness of something I cannot explain. I see things that aren't there in my peripheral vision. I hear things that aren't there. I smell things that aren't there. I cannot go into certain rooms in my house as I'm too scared of what's in there. Things in the house move inexplicably and turn on and off, doors open and close.
The scariest thing of all is what happens to me when I'm asleep. At the start I'm not quite sure if I'm sleeping or awake. I'm laying in my bed next to my partner. I see things out the corner of my eye. When I sit up and see my reflection in the mirrored door the reflection of my face is smeared. Scared I lay back down and try to ignore it. The room goes ice cold and then I feel an intense pain in my chest. I can feel myself being dragged screaming out of my body. My scream is not from my voice but from somewhere else and my body is paralyzed. I fight to cling to my body until I cannot fight it any longer and I am taken to a place I cannot explain. I see colors I have never seen before, creatures I have never seen before, plants and people like things I cannot describe. I feel an urgency to get away and I am always on the run. There are those that help me and some that just stand and watch. After what feels like a lifetime I find my way out and feel like I'm falling and then it takes me a good 20 minutes to half an hour to come to grips with 'reality' and who I am and where I am.
I'm really scared. I'm not crazy. I'm not on drugs. It all feels so real. What's happening to me?
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Ground yourself, ground yourself, ground yourself.
Every morning, close your eyes, stand on your feet, take root, deep down into the earth. Afterwards, thank Mother Earth.
Ask st. Michael to protect you throughout the day, with everything, with anything. ❤