Psychic By Talking

I'm 19 years old, and have had psychic abilities my entire life, but never really payed any attention to it.

I've always had a perfect score, while reading tarot cards for my friends or college students, I did it as a way to make a little money from time to time. I always thought that my readings were based off of common sense and logic, up until recently when I started predicting things just by babbling about.

I've recently started working in the public in retail sales, and every now and then my guesses on people would scare them, leaving me without sales or with people who are genuinely interested in me. But during my conversations with my boyfriend or other people, I'll start to have random moments in time where I zone out and my vision will be become blurry and everything that comes out, while I'm talking is usually not related to the conversation at hand.

For an example, I was on my 30 minute break at work and I went to have a smoke outside, near the Macy's dumpsters and I ended up calling my boyfriend, we ended up having a nice conversation, laughing and just having a good time, when I suddenly feel a movement behind me, like wind. I felt like someone was near me, but I looked around and no one was there, and that's when my vision became blurred and I said, "Babe, what if I die, right now?" And he said to me, "Well, I hope you don't die, what do you mean, like murdered?" And I said, "Yes, murdered, like someone hitting me over the head and I'm just dead. Could you do me a favor and call my boss at Godiva and tell him that I'm deceased,

I wouldn't want him to think I skipped out on my job and just ran away." And as the conversation ended, and the day at work was done, my boss fired me from my job. But I realized why he did it and what had happened. The mall closes at 6:00 pm on Sunday and he closed the doors and locked the customers in there with me at 5:00 pm and went to go talk to his girlfriend, as soon as he came back in, he was stoic and odd. Later on I realized he had to fire me due to his jealous girlfriend, she didn't like the fact that he was working with an attractive girl, and realized he had already hired another person, so this way he was able to take care of his girlfriend's situation.

As I went home, it came back to me, why I had that random thought and why I said it. During my vision I had the feeling of being stabbed in the back by someone close to me, I had two jobs one at Starbucks and the other at Godiva, why would I have said, please call Godiva and not Starbucks, or both?

But at the time that I had said this random thought, I completely forgot I had said it in the first place, until my boyfriend reminded me.

As it turns out, I have these random moments all the time where I zone out and start talking about unrelated things and then forget about them and then hours later, it comes true.

This new thing that's happening with me shocks me in some way, as a child I was able to just see things that other people couldn't. I was a medium, I was just able to see and communicate with ghost.

Another example:

When I was about 5 years old, learning to talk. My grandfather's father fell very ill and was hospitalized for a month. During that time I was with my grandmother at her husband's mother's home. I was playing with some dolls, when I suddenly walked into the next room and started waving. My grandmother had came in and said so me, "What are you doing? Why are you waving at empty air?"

And I told her, "Big papa, he's going up. Say goodbye, he's leaving." And she said to me, "What do you mean?"

I kept saying to her, "He's going up! Big papa is leaving."

About 5 minutes later, my grandfather called my grandma, crying on the phone say that he had just passed away. My grandmother had told him that she already knew, that I told her.

So in conclusion, I honestly don't know how to control my abilities, they are completely random and I just wonder if they are changing. Am I evolving or devolving?