I am 24, since I was young I have been able to sense energies around me, particularly negative ones. Growing up I spent more time sleeping in my parents bed than the average child due to overwhelming feelings of a negative presence watching me or being in my room. I always needed a night light, door open, parents door across the hall open, and closet doors closed. I have also always had roommates for this reason. I am also able to lucid dream, which happens on its own and I control what I say/do but not the setting or who/what is there. The clearest image of a spirit I have ever experienced was a few summers ago I was out with my sister downtown and in the crowd I saw my aunt, clear as day walking with all of the people. My aunt had passed away from breast cancer 8 years prior to this. By the time I had turned to my sister to tell her to look and wrapped my head around what I thought I had seen, she was gone. I convinced myself it was all in my head or maybe it was just someone who looked like her.
My fiancé and I live in a very old apartment building in downtown Victoria BC, one of the most "haunted" cities in Canada. We just so happen to live right in the thick of the historical area, 100+ year old Victorian homes, and just down the street is Ross Bay Cemetery, opened in 1873, Many famous Canadians and Americans are buried there, including Sir James Douglas (BC's first governor), many subsequent premiers, coal baron Robert Dunsmuir (who built Craigdarroch Castle), Sir Matthew Baillie Begbie (the judge responsible for hanging many people here), Emily Carr (world-famous artist), Billy Barker (discoverer of gold at Barkerville) and Nellie Chapman (the "Miners' Angel" who was featured on a US postage stamp). It is considered one of the most haunted places in the city and I won't even drive past it. The whole area is used in several "ghost tours" by our huge tourist industry. So needless to say there is a lot of activity around here and as soon as I walk into my apartment- even if my fiancé is not home- I am never alone. I have been told by other gifted individuals that I am an open vessel to spirits and right now it feels like they are all moving in.
We moved into this apartment in January of this year and right from the beginning I have sensed a negative energy constantly watching me in my home. The bathroom and hallway seems to retain the most energy and I can't even take a shower in peace. This has made me quite afraid to be here alone, particularly at night time. I have to avoid windows and mirrors like the plague and have a hard time going from room to room without fear. My friend who is a gifted Clairvoyant and who practices hoodoo, (she comes from a long line of priestesses in Louisiana) has given me some methods to try and protect myself from this energy. I am constantly burning at least 3 white candles in each room, I also smudge, burn incense, and wear crystals. Lately I have been practicing deep meditation and spreading a protective light over myself especially when I am in the bathroom.
Yesterday I meditated and focused on my light before showering, and as soon as I got in the bathroom I had this feeling of safety. In my mind I got a clear image of an old woman who stood in the bathroom right in front of the negative spirit like a protective wall. I can't believe how clearly I could see her in my mind, an image just popped up and I knew it was her. She had a very strong and kind presence and right away I made it known to her that she is welcome and I thanked her for protecting me.
I have a few questions for anyone who can give me answers:
1. How can I welcome the positive spirits and block out the negative? I do not want to necessarily rid my apartment of all activity, especially the good. And honestly there is so much activity around this area that I feel like getting rid of one will just make room for another.
2.Would partaking in a past-life regression be a dangerous idea for me because I am so open to spiritual activity? My clairvoyant friend has told me that she worries I may bring something unsavoury back with me if it is out there but that she would do one for me if I wished.
3. -This probably comes up often- Am I just loosing my mind? Hah.
Thank you for reading my story!