A while ago before I was turned to opening my mind and body, I was interested in the stars and the cosmos. I have always been a secluded person so the stars have always been my best companion whether known and unknown they have been there in my reality during hard times. Getting into this subject I started learning about energies and how we are all effected by it throughout the universe. (I didn't pay attention in school much).
One day while on the bus ride headed to work, I was brought back to my awareness of a pain in my left wrist, I must frequently pop it to relive tension. I Understand not all healing has to come from doctors so me being me and the imaginative person I am, I tried to channel energy from the sun directly into my wrist.
Had no idea what I was doing.
In the same moment, I start to feel my body tingling and a buzz, like during sleep but I was wide awake (eyes closed of course).
I then start to see but also feel this bright blue Light come over and through me, it felt so warming and comfortable that I let it be.
It then said with this faint voice " Don't worry about your body I got you".
At that very moment I felt every piece of that blue form in every single part of my body I could feel it in my veins, my blood rushing, my organs everything I felt it.
(That's kind of hard to explain seeing we occupy these things 24/7)
Seconds later I felt the sun from a distance but so close. Nothing was wrong and I had no worries. There was a conversation that we had but the view from space the way it was presented to me was too marvelous to even recollect the words spoken.
The flames from the sun, the dead speed of the earth, the silence of space. It was like nothing else.
The way this being or spirit looked was infinite in beauty. The blue was bright but also subtle. The touch was un-explainable and the experience was too short.
Of course being on a bus things didn't go for too long. But still perfectly.
I got off of that bus in confusion, I didn't know if what just happened was simply a dream while wide awake, if I'm going crazy or what. So ignored it for a moment.
That same night at work (10pm-6am) I began doing more research. This time on spirits and not the stars and in doing so I couldn't find the answer I was looking for. Anywhere. So I began praying through writing what I had experienced. At around 12 midnight close to 1, still writing I get this urge to ask what that blue light was and why it came to me.
While still writing this letter my heart was pounding coming to the question of "What is your name?"
Because deep down I didn't want an answer.
As I let go and let that feeling live, my pen wrote out "KUSTAVFO".
Now, I know I'm not insane maybe crazy, but every-time I speak of that name I sense that blue feeling. I feel myself, maybe I feel him. With me.
I have a huge Concern.
Who is this person?! Does any one know of this name? Did I spell it wrong? I feel like he tries to talk with me but all I get is these faint white noises of light. Yes it varies from ear to ear but if I must be exact its not in my ears I feel like its in me. Am I supposed to embrace the sound or interpret it.
I hear but don't understand. Am I missing something?