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Can I Or Should I Try To Develop Medium Abilities?


I first started contacting spirits about a year ago through the ouija board. I have seen apparitions twice about four years ago with my boyfriend who did not see them. One was an angelic figure, the other was a farmer. I have not seen any since then. I have come to believe that those spirits were protective spirits who came to me because of the awful depressed mood I constantly picked up from him which seemed to transfer into my own mood.

Through the ouija board and automatic writing I talk with mainly four spirit guides and my cousin who passed away a few years ago. I see these figures in my head. Sometimes they change clothes and ages, one even changes gender. I often feel like spirits come to visit me. I feel their presence like someone is watching me. As a child I was afraid of windows, especially when it was dark outside. I could not have any posters in my room or pictures of people I didn't know because I couldn't sleep at night since it felt like they were staring at me. The image of skulls or eyeballs freak me out.

My father never let me watch scary movies, he told me I was too sensitive. It especially surprised me when I was about to turn on the movie Ghost and he freaked out telling me not to watch it because it would mess with my head. He didn't want to take me to graveyards. When my cousin died and I was 14 he didn't even ask if I wanted to go to the funeral.

He told me he heard voices as a child but after ignoring them they finally went away. He has told me to not mess with any spiritual stuff like this, because my cousin "got in with the devil" as he says and ended up committing suicide. My family is extremely baptist. I wonder if my dad knows something I don't about me and my cousin that he isn't telling me. He has never tried to keep my little sister from doing anything and insists that my sister and I are two different people. Although, I am 21 and she is 16 he has always been extremely protective over me. My father will tell me his dreams and ask me what I think they mean and talk about how our family members sometimes appear to him and talk with him. My mother and sister rarely have any dreams they remember. Basically they don't even have nightmares even though I have an active dream life and as a child couldn't even sleep with the light off until I was about ten because my nightmares would mix with my reality so bad that even after I woke up it took time for me to differentiate between the two worlds.

My cousin was like a son to my father. When I tried to talk to my cousin about it on the ouija board he told me that he was sorry I have the same abilities as he did. He said all he could do was see things, but I can see and hear things which he seemed to believe was much worse. He told me that he was my father's son in response to us all having the same issues. I don't know what that means exactly.

My most intense memory of my cousin was when I was with him at my grandma's and he was staring out the window, pointing, and hyperventilating and freaking out because we couldn't see the figure by the tree that he was so insistent was there. At this time he was about 16 and I was 8. I remember looking at my grandma's face and seeing how worried she was. My dad's response was that my cousin was probably doing some type of drugs. Apparently my cousin wrote a letter after he committed suicide which my name was in. Either I dreamed this, but I'm pretty sure I didn't but I was talking to my dad about the letter and telling him I wanted to see it. He said that I wasn't in the letter, and told me for about the twentieth time that he would try to find a good time to let my grandma show me the letter. It's been about 8 years since he died and I still haven't seen the letter, although my cousin has often insisted through our chats on the ouija board that I should read it.

When I first started the ouija board I would get a clammy feeling and my hands would start freezing I would feel a presence like someone was urging me to go get the ouija board. Then I would end up getting the board out and talking with someone who was just curious and wanted attention, but really had confused messages. I still get things coming to speak to me in my head, most of the time I ignore them if they aren't one of my spirit guides because usually they have nothing serious or relevant to say. Now it seems that the ouija board has become a spring board. I no longer look to see what it has to say I merely hear the voices in my head and feel the energy of teh planchette moving and use it to confirm yes or no if I get confused.

A few months ago I got on the ouija board with one of my close friends who I hadn't seen in a while. I had been doing some automatic writing earlier that day and my spirit guide seemed excited about knowing I would be on the ouija board and told me that she had a surprise for me tonight. As soon as I got on the ouija board that night I began intercepting pictures, voices, sounds, dreams, and stories which had never happened before. The planchette became more of an energy ball that just confirmed yes or no as words came spilling out of my mouth. My friend was sitting in the chair crying, because I just sat staring at the wall and telling him all of these intimate parts and stories of his life I had never even heard of. From what I gather the reason it was so intense was because his father was his spirit guide and he was trying to get his son to straighten up and follow a better life path. I spoke like I was someone else and I kept having to force myself to say, "the persons says this" because it seemed like I was tapping into some kind of collective consciousness and even though it was my voice speaking, the words belonged to someone else. It was like I had more than two eyes. I saw the wall I was staring at, but it felt like the other part of me was dreaming visions. A lot of times the words weren't straight like, "Your father says that you should do this..." It sounded more like, "there is a sailboat, the wind is blowing, and there is a little girl in a yellow dress, she looks at you and wants you to share your sandwich, but you won't do it."

Then the spirit would interpret the picture, saying that since my friend was going into the marine corps, he is leaving behind his niece and nephew. The sailboat shows his freedom, but also the consequences he will have to deal with to obtain this freedom. Then the spirit would say that my friend had a problem with sharing, he was constantly stingy. He only thought of himself rather than other people. Then the spirit would explain how his stinginess would inhibit future opportunities. Then I would find out that the vision connected to a dream my friend had or a song he used to listen to with his father or a favorite movie or animal from childhood. It was like his father was trying to speak through images that his son would understand, knowing that only the two of them would know. I even described a person to him that he had been hateful to in boot camp and how this person would one day maybe help to save his life, but would actually think twice about it because of how awful he had treated him. The voices had a humor and personality to them that did not belong to me.

I also had one girl visit me who saw me in the grave yard. She absorbed herself into me. I could feel her feelings. I felt if I asked her to go away she would be angry. After reading Edgar Cayce's book I realized I had picked her up through a common feeling of sympathy by looking at her baby brother and sister's grave. She watched me all the time I could feel that she was jealous that I was alive and she wasn't. She was around the same age as me. She became so oppressive that I asked for help from the ouija board and one of her brothers came to me to tell me her story and told me to tell her to go to the light that it was time to leave this world. When I told her that she got so angry I could feel her flaming inside of me. Finally I asked her to leave because she was frightening me and she let me see her leave my mind in a white ball of light and float away. I haven't felt her since. If that was what being a medium feels like I definitely was not prepared for it. When I work with tarot cards I feel the right set to lay down and my spirit guides allow me to see things I wouldn't normally see. They communicate with me through songs on the radio. My cd often skips to a numbered song and a certain place in the road and says two lines and then changes itself. I find that the place I'm at, street signs, other signs, words in the songs, all work together to contribute a meaning. I've found that they have given my life number 5 to me and the number 6 to my husband. Through numerology my husband and I have found that pretty much everything in our life from our birthdays, the time we have known each other, to our former addresses, and the number of our names have added up to these numbers.

I want to enhance these abilities, but I'm not sure what the purpose would be. I have a few friends who are receptive to the idea of speaking to the dead and all, but most of my family is totally against it. I would like to help other people in some way by doing these things. I felt that I did help my friend by speaking with his father, but I also felt that I tapped into a lot of private emotions and other stories he would have never wanted me to see. So, I've only tried reading my friends tarot cards and giving them spiritual advice. Whenever I have read the bible lately I have been led to the books of the prophets. Reading their language sounds just like my voice did that night with my friend on the board. I don't think I can bring this knowledge to myself. According to my spirit guides, it comes when someone is needing to hear it and their is a spirit ready to give the information to me. I feel like I have an advantage, because I already knew him pretty well even though I didn't know most of what I told him. So, I guess my question is, how can I enhance these abilities and use them to help others? Or should I even try to enhance them with the freaked out responses of my father and cousin?

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phychic1231 (6 posts)
14 years ago (2009-06-15)
yeah my mom says that, that board attracts bad spirts. I don't like to provoc bad spirts, my mom freaked when I asked her what that board was, shes like if I was you I'd stay away from that board.
one_of_a_kindxo (2 stories) (13 posts)
14 years ago (2009-04-10)
my mom has always told me to stay away from the Ouiji bored. She says it is very easy for sprits to take over u
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-30)
BlackDragon, I had a vision dream last night about a teen girl driving a large pickup or suv with her younger brother in the passenger seat. She could not get his seatbelt done up properly. She left his window down a bit. They drove off and soon a black dragon passed them on the left and stopped in front of them, blocking the road and it glared back at them. She swurved to avoid it and their truck went off the road and over a high cliff to the ocean below. She held her brother's arm and told him over and over "This is only a dream" so he would not be scared. She held his arm so when in the water she could feel him and pull him out with her. Later she was in a house alone collecting her belongings. She was wet. I do not feel she was alive.

This may or may not relate to you but after seeing your profile name it could relate to you in some way. I have never ever seen a dragon in a dream before. Normally it would have been a vehicle, not a dragon.

Johnathan15 (2 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-28)
Meditate and prey you need the help 😁 😨 😳 aSDFGHJKL. WERTTYU. QWERTYUIO.asdfghjk
girlygirl89 (guest)
14 years ago (2009-03-27)
I think everyone is right in telling you not to use the Ouija board. You should try other ways of contacting your spirit guides. If you find yourself addicted to it then you probably are already under its influence or the influence of a demon or evil spirit. Maybe you think that using the board will make you a "greater" medium/psychic but, I don't believe that. I don't think there is a shortcut even with psychic abilities you have to train yourself to get better.
sweetjessiemac (1 stories) (3 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-27)
Thank you Oracle, I will try those tips you sent me. Balckdragon, how do you suggest that I should protect myself?
balckdragon (18 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-27)
also I forgot to mention you gotta protect yourself as well so no harm can come to you when speaking to the spirits
balckdragon (18 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-27)
first thing is never use that board and yes you can become one it's not very hard to do all you gotta do is be patient and when the time is right you can speak to spirits at will also becarful as well because some spirits can be mean if you force them to do something they don't want to do
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-26)
How to contact your Guides:

It is important to seek advice from your Guides. Unlike people, your Guides always have good intentions and their job is to protect you and guide you.

Here are some tips on how to make contact with your Guides.

To confirm that you have Guides (and that they are who they say they are) ask them for signs then be on the lookout for those signs. I asked for specific detailed signs which are not easily found anywhere and they shocked me everytime by sending me those exact signs, so make your requests a bit challenging (but not impossible) and they will comply. Do not be scared. Think of your Guides as friends, Angels, etc. Your job is to develop and use your gift and their job is to show you how. Just make certain you only use it for good purposes. Also make certain they are Guides, not bad entities, by only thinking your thoughts to them rather than speaking your requests outloud, and first pray for your top level Guides to come guide you, and verbally outloud banish all bad entities from around you telling them they are not welcome.

Guides or spirits?

It is very important to confirm that they are good entities which you are meant to help and not bad entities trying to attack or manipulate you. They can see you and hear your spoken word but not usually hear your thoughts so the first thing to do is to pray for your guides to protect you and advise you on what to do. As for the entities/spirits you must speak outloud to them to ensure that they hear you and tell them that you only welcome good spirits and ask all negative or bad energies/entities/spirits to leave. This is also important to do when using lettered cards, tarot cards, scrabble, etc to communicate with your top level Guides for advice and guidance. Always confirm you are speaking to them and not to entities/spirits until you are ready to do so.

How to make first contact with Guides:

-First be relaxed and in a location where you feel most spiritual and protected.

-Next in your mind and outloud ask for all negative energies/entities to leave for they are not welcome. They need to be told this.

-Next pray innerly (not outloud). Ask to be protected from negative, bad, evil, or dark energies/entities/spirits.

-Once you feel at peace and protected, pray innerly to communicate with your Top Level Guides. Only those who guide you, care for you, protect you, and are of the white light.

-You will then hear some inner thoughts, which at first you might feel are only your own, but they will catch you off guard because you will know you yourself did not think that thought. Reply to it. Listen carefully. Ask it questions. Listen for answers.

-Now at this point you will wonder if you are crazy, and are imagining things, or making it up in your own mind. This is when you need to ask to be sent signs as an assurance that they do in fact exist. They do not mind doing this. They understand. Request a sign which is challenging and not so common so you will know for a fact that it is from them, but do not choose a sign that is impossible.

Be aware and watch for the signs.

Keep in mind that Guides do not always come forward until we know they exist, believe in them, and need them. Even then it might be against the rules for them to come forward. Others like to remain hidden and watch over us silently. Remember that Guides are on another level. They can make mistakes, be not so experienced as other ones, and might bend the rules and get in trouble for it. So be careful when making contact and making demands. They do have to answer to the highest power aka God.

Ways to communicate with your Guides:

-Rune Stones
-Asking for and reading signs

To get your Guides to TALK to you in a more physical voice they need to develop this ability just as you need to develop the ability to HEAR them.

Until then they will use whatever other methods they can in which to communicate with you (Inner Thoughts, Tarot, Rune, Meditating, Radio, Signs, etc).

Remember not to pressure your Guides with being able to communicate better with you. They want this as much as you do and it is a two way street. You try more on your end, and they will try more on their end. Teamwork.

If you have any further questions do not hestitate to ask me. I am always happy to help others. Click on my profile name to read other helpful tips.

The best way to message me is to click on my name to read the story I posted then post a comment on my story. I check those comments often.

Oracle, Psychic Medium for 42 years
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
14 years ago (2009-03-26)
Your family members have very good intentions of trying to protect you. They mean well. Obviously they have some experience with what you have. It most likely runs in the family, such as with your cousin you mentioned.

However, if you still feel drawn to it, then at least make certain you use it to help people. Use it only for good purposes. On this subject, I do not recommend using the Ouiji board since it opens up the portal to all entities (good and bad) and it is hard to close that door since you welcomed them by opening it.

I will add some helpful tips on my next post which follows.

Oracle, Psychic Medium for 42 years

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