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Losing Psychic Abilities


I came across your site yesterday and found it so interesting. I have a question that I just can't answer for myself. I'll try to keep it brief so as to not bore anyone. =)

In no way would I feel comfortable saying that I have psychic abilities. I have, since I was young, been able to feel bad or good things coming, but no exact feelings about when or how. Up until I was 24, I would get dreams that acted as premonitions. I'd know if someone was pregnant without being told, just from my dreams.

Also, I would wake up in the middle of the night saying that family members were in labor, even if it was premature, and I was right every time. I used to look up at the clock at 11:11 every day, no matter where I was. It wasn't a good feeling that I would get about it, it was dread. And for years before turning 24, I'd wake up around 2:40 a.m. Feeling the same dread.

I also used to feel someone come and sit on my bed and I'd open my eyes and nobody would be there, but it was a comforting feeling not a scary one. I can't explain that at all.

When I turned 24, I had a baby and my grandfather died, all in the same week. My grandfather was much like a father to me and helped raise me from the time I was born. We were always connected. Here's the weird thing. He died on November 11th (11-11) at 2:40 in the morning. 5 minutes before the phone call came that my grandpa had passed, I became very ill and started vomiting. When the phone rang, I knew it was that he had passed.

My grandpa was Cherokee Indian. My grandma used to say he was so dramatic because if someone sickly or angry or depressed came around him, he would become ill himself and lay in bed for days. If he was in public in a crowded place, he easily got headaches or anxiety. He also claimed to see shadow figures and receive warnings. This was all blown off by the family as my grandpa being dramatic and now that I look back, I think he may have been a sensitive or an empath (?).

Before we knew my grandpa was dying, he put his hand on my pregnant belly and told me that I was going to have myself a nice boy and I should tell him that his great-grandpa touched him. At the time, I thought, "Why don't you just tell him yourself?" He passed away a few months later, one week before my son was born.

So to make a growing story short, the loss of my grandpa and the birth of my son were too overwhelming for my body to continue functioning. It felt as though a part of me was ripped away and I had never felt so incomplete without my g-pa. I started having major panic attacks and depression. I basically went through a 3 month period where I just had a nervous breakdown. My son gave me the strength to pull back into life and I have been recovered for 5 years now. I am still on anti-depressants.

All of that being said, after the nervous breakdown and the death of my grandpa, I have no premonitions. No good feelings, no bad feelings. No waking up at certain times and no noticing the clock. It's all gone.

My questions are these: Could I have somehow been linked with my grandpa and once he passed, I couldn't feel anything on my own anymore? Or did my nervous breakdown somehow block any ability I may have had?

I recently was very sick for 9 weeks and I was scared to death that something was very wrong with me. I had the most vivid dream where my grandpa came and walked into the room just to give me a big hug. I could even still smell the way he used to smell, which is the first time I recall smelling anything in a dream. He said, "Everything will be ok." I recovered shortly after.

Now my almost 6 year old son came to me and said that there was a face in his room, looking at him. Now remember that he was never around my grandpa, but he described everything about him. I didn't give any hints as to who I thought it was, and my son says, "Mom, I think it was your pop-pop and I wasn't even scared."

Another weird thing that has never happened to me until last summer, was that my grandma on my dad's side passed away. We had a family picnic 5 days later out in the woods. I got a chill, super dizzy, and felt this pressure around me like a hug. It lasted maybe 7 or 8 seconds and then lifted.

What in the world is going on with me?! My son?! Any insight would be welcomed.

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Lioness (8 posts)
10 years ago (2013-09-24) roseroot may be helpful to get better in touch with your abilities, its known to adapt itself to the needs of your body... Personally I recommend it, just bought it myself a few days ago.

Other than that I only wish you well:) I think the comments have said what I intended and more already:)
lostindigo (1 posts)
10 years ago (2013-09-24)
I have experienced the exact same thing with in the first 4 paragraphs. EXACTLY the same thing and same times on the clock (11:11am and pm and 2:40am). When I was younger I could tell when someone was going to pass away. I would have dreams within a week before it happened and I would cry every day until the day of the passing. It was like I was grieving before it happened and was preparing myself for the passing. I can also tell when life events are going to happen. I have dreams about it months before it happens and I would let my mom about the dream asap. And then when it would happen she was amazed at how I was correct about every detail. I also can sense when good and bad things will happen but I don't know what exactly and when. But now I am suffering from depression and I want to take antidepressants but I am scared that it will affect my dreams, and premonintions. I am only 21 and I don't know what to do. I am emotionally unstable and need something to make me functional and look forward to the future. I am so sad and can see other people "future" but I have no sense of anything for myself and makes me feel so lost. Will the antidepressants take away my "psychic abilities?"
lilangelcakes887 (1 stories) (12 posts)
12 years ago (2012-06-20)
I believe it really all depends on the person. I too am on antidepressants but it has helped me strengthen my abilities. Things and feelings come to me more clearly than before. I am more in tuned to my surroundings and my gifts. Only you can answer that question for yourself. If you feel that it is a hinderance than maybe change to natural remedies. I would recommend herbal teas. One that is helpful to relax is chamomile tea. I hope this helps.
branby1994 (1 stories) (3 posts)
13 years ago (2010-12-18)
I was the same way until I started taking an antidepressant 7 years ago. I'm trying to go off my medication gradually. Its slowly coming back to me
marie (1 stories) (8 posts)
15 years ago (2009-06-17)
I think the medication is a major part of what made your abilities go away. I am an empath and used to have lots of dreams until I had to take some medication for something a long time ago and then my abilities started to slow down. I haven't taken it for a while now and my abilities are slowly coming back to me so don't worry I'm sure yours will too:)
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-25)
Confidence is a powerful key in enlightenment and advancement. Having too much confidence makes people accuse us of having EGO, but on the other hand if we have self doubt or hold back for other reasons we are then accused of being INSECURE. So balance is required, and it is something that we must achieve because with the right amount of confidence we can let down our barriers, open our minds, and with trust we can tranform with greatness of new abilities and heightened awareness. This new found confidence allows us to develop and gives us a much better life and also enables us to help others better.

So do things which you know gives you confidence, and walk away from anything or anyone who tries to lower your confidence.

Always happy to help others
Dragonfly79 (guest)
15 years ago (2009-05-25)
Why the need for reassurance? It's funny you should ask that. I ask for reassurance in everything. All of the time. I never trust that I am "right" in my thinking. I have an issue with being afraid of failure. And I also have an issue with sounding like a crazy person. LOL. My friends think a dragonfly is just a dragonfly, that looking at the clock at the same time every night until my g-pa passed at that exact time is just a coincidence, and they think I am weird for being able to guess they are pregnant before they tell anyone. So when I found this site, I knew I could openly ask questions and maybe get a little bit of insight into what in the world is going on with me.
Oracle101 (2 stories) (506 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-25)
I know this may sound annoying, but you already anwered your own questions. If you read your posted story you will notice that all your questions are answered. Remember, the answers lay within. If you feel it is something or someone then it usually is. Even your son knows. Why question it? Why the need for reassurance when you already know?

With love,

Oracle, Psychic and Medium for 42 years
Always happy to help others
XtjrX (7 stories) (300 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-24)
Dragonfly79: I have the answer. Your grandfather was a Heyoka. The dragonfly symbol was the key. I have ridden the lightning:).
SilverWing (1 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-24)
Hm, Sometimes medications interfere with psychic abilities. When I was taking anti-depressants I felt like a zombie, no emotion, I felt lost and I felt I couldn't contact the spirits I usually talked too, but be happy your son is not afraid, I believe you should accept your father is with you and is looking after you and your son. Try speaking with him, he can hear you. You're son obviously can see him, why not have your son try speaking to his grandfather also? He knows about the spirits now. Teach him, and maybe the both of you will gain happiness and knowledge.
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-23)
Regarding your last comment,closure!
In a regular grieving process when a person has an illness and dies slowly:last good byes,amends,thanks goes into motion.
You felt it 2 ways! One he was just gone-so your energetic connect did not have time to unravel in a normal process. You mentioned you felt ripped that was the astral body level. In the old way of most american indians there was a way of releasing blessing/love on the wings of the wind to great Creator. NAC has a different way of dealing with illness and death/birth.
You could create a circle with grand dads picture encorporate the 7 directions with what prayers you use now. Bring in sage or other herbs to burn in a sacred manner, bring in your symbol of dragon fly. I use a combination of a lot of other things. When I have some one die weather pet or loved one I go into mourning and work with other centers to ensure Death rites are done. Mine is more involved, this is short version. Some times in mourning we call back loved ones on a psychic and emotional level. If you want more just click on my user name and e-mail. I too have Am Indian on my dads maternal/paternal side. Blessings
Dragonfly79 (guest)
15 years ago (2009-05-23)
Thank you everyone so much! I think I knew deep down that it was the nervous breakdown and the medication that caused everything to "go away." The small things that I described that have sort of come back to me have all happened since I switched to a lower dose of anti-depressants.

That's very interesting about the vomiting right when my grandpa passed. It was the most overwhelming twisting in my stomach, not even a real nausea, just a terrible pain.

I wish there was some way I could "hear" him. I spoke to him out loud yesterday for the first time in 5 years. I asked him to show me a sign that he is around, I also asked him to make it be something I would recognize but that I wasn't ready to see his figure like he was showing to my son. I really think I might lose it if I saw him standing there.

Another thing that I think might be hindering me is that I know I haven't completely let go of him. We still have his ashes and I was unable to go to the memorial service because I was in the hospital having had a c-section. I've never felt real closure, not sure if it's because I don't want to admit he is gone, or if it's because one day he was here and the next he was just wasn't anymore.
stormtree (1 stories) (53 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-22)
Hey, Dragonfly,

I've read through the earlier comments, and it looks like you've received some great support. By the time I read your "please read", it appears that you had already been read and well cared for. Some of what I am about to write underscores what has already been said, but I was struck by couple of things that had not been mentioned.

It does, indeed, seem totally credible that your grandfather was sensitive, and perhaps had some challenge keeping his own center and boundaries, which is a universal challenge to empaths (which can be overcome.)

Clearly he has been a loving and supportive presence for you and your son, and it sounds like he is not the only one.

There is no question that life stress can make us ill and compromise any ability, from being able to keep a checkbook balanced to being able to fix and eat a meal. One can become totally unable to feel sincere affection or hope related to your closest family member right in front of you or your own creative work at hand. Psychic clarity?

In addition, MAO inhibitors and a lot of other medications absolutely dull everything from libido to clairvoyance.

Beyond all of this, it is quite common for gifts to ebb, flow, and shift, seemingly for no reason.

You wrote, "In no way would I feel comfortable saying that I have psychic abilities." Well, get comfortable.

Now here's something that struck me: Most of what you have described related to your psychic experiences has dealt with birth, and death, and the afterlife. These are not mundane things. As you read these posts, you will find people writing about world events and knowing the phone was going to ring and seeing a relationship before it showed up and a hundred things that are more or less what might be termed everyday concerns.

Even your illness (and by the way, a lot of people are way too glib in throwing out the platitude about an illness being a healing in disguise... But there is truth to this) was associated by you with these critical passages. Our greatest trials frequently become our areas of veteran strength. You fly with the owl. You are focused on that door of passage.

It may be that your gift and calling relate to this.

Just to illustrate of what I mean, one midwife I knew was never surprised by the timing of things related to birth. ("I thought there was something in the air," she would say, as she called a client family just before they called her upon going into labor.

On the other hand, I have frequently found myself in the role of supporting souls in transition during physical death.

Obviously, many individuals find their primary focus as mediums.

Yours to find out... I only wonder.

(Incidentally, I've seen some really killer tats from the Pacific Northwest, and a few good ones from some northeastern urban areas. It frustrates me that I don't see a lot of real quality art in the part of the country I'm in right now. I guess I mention this for the sake of expressing appreciation for your passion and trade. I have a piece that I want done when the time is right. But you are sure as truth earning your dragon.)

angleGirl111 (1 stories) (113 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-22)
I think its the antidepressants...
My parents both take them and were psychic but are not now. I am but its weekend cuase I'm not using it. I have gottin the same thing... It happends when psychic ability gets so low that you start to lose spirtual connectsions.
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-22)
Hi it sounds like on an unconscious level you were being prepared for your grandpa's passing by the clock 11:11 up at 2:40am.
Your closeness with him affected you physically/emotinally/mentally which affected your 3 lower chakras hence you experience the vomiting, sickened by disconnection from Grandpa. People who have had upsets in the emotional solar plex can physically fill punched in that area, to the extent of falling over in physical pain. With parents and children there are cords that energetically connect us: hence you experiencing void, filling incomplete.
It would be helpful continue pray and to meditate, put emphasis expecially on lower chakras and visualize the 3 lower chakras connecting to your heart:seeing them balanced. You would not have any preminitions since medication can interfere with the flow of energy in the parasympathetic body not reaching the 3rd eye. Last summer it truly sounds as if Grandpa knew you needed him. Chills represent deceased people, super dizzy represents being overwhelmed and its not easy to process sometimes when spirit moves in, we have to consciously step back to process. I have felt that way in a different situation.
Back to Granpa-"he knew you needed support.
Love never dies even when those we love cross over has been my experience... Blessings
foxfire290 (6 stories) (7 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-22)
I am sorry for your losses, but maybe I can help you. I to have had abilities since I was young as long as I can remember. But I to had a time period where mine lessened drastically. When my youngest son premature birth I fell into a deep depression in fact they to put me on medication while I was taking the medication a side effect I found was my abilities drastically lessened. When I was strong enough and no longer on mediation mine returned. All I can say is that I believe that the medication antidepressants and such work on the brain and some how blocked my abilities. Maybe yours are not gone just blocked for the moment to.
❤ ❤
Tiffany006 (2 stories) (30 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
Sorry also try working on healing your chakras that may help not any with the fear but the attacks too. I have some stuff on my blog about it, but there is also some really good information on this site too under the article section!
Tiffany006 (2 stories) (30 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
Dragonfly, take a look at my blog there are different tips and things you can do to strenghten it. Connections to animals I think is normal. I think everyone also has an animal guide as well as a spirit guide.
Work on it, you'll do great!
Dragonfly79 (guest)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
XtjrX: I definitely still live in fear. Fear of having the panic attacks again. I don't know how to let go of the fear. I talked to the doc about it and they only want to up my meds. I won't do it because I'm not going to live life like a zombie.

There is one thing that makes the fear go away... When I am by the river. I always feel closer to my grandpa when I am by the water, which is odd because I don't think we ever hung out by the water together.
XtjrX (7 stories) (300 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
Dragonfly: It's interesting that you bring up tattoos. I'm a tattoo artist by passion. I tattood on my entire for arm the Japaneases koi fish, with the kanki for "inner stregnth". It's now 2 years old. On the other side of my "sleeve" the dragon. I haven't finished the dragon yet, because I feel I need to "earn" pieces to complete it. I do tattoos for lots of people, because I value self expression, and am always glad to empower them with their protective imagery. I'm rooting for you!
Pezza19 (1 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
It's got to be because of your breakdown. These abilities people talk about, are given to every human, but some people are more open than others. There are 7 main chakra points in the body, and they all act ons different things.

When we are going through difficult times, our chakra's can start to close, or get blocked so to speak.

To reopen your chakra's you need to work with them and find out the reasons you have changed from what you was before.
XtjrX (7 stories) (300 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
Dragonfly79: Your still holding on to fear. So long as your are afraid your spiritual growth will be stunted. At some point, we all have to face at what we fear most. If you live in fear your not living at all, your grandfather was a very powerfull shaman, and I'm sure he will give you stregnth to fight if you ask for it! Cherokee blood is the blood of a WARRIOR! Get in touch with your ancestry and see how powerfull you really are.
Dragonfly79 (guest)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
One thing that has started happening over the last few years is this dragonfly thing. I got a tattoo of a dragonfly on my lower back after my g-pa died to remember him. And then one day, I was thinking about him and a dragonfly came and landed on my deck. Then one day a dragonfly started flying in our backyard in a figure eight for about 15 minutes, that was right before I got the call that my grandma had died. Then at her funeral, a dragonfly showed up and flew around us while the pastor spoke. And a few weeks later, at my wedding, a dragonfly showed up during prayer.

This is all something that my "logical" friends think is a coincidence, but in my heart I think there may be more because we don't have a lot of dragonflies here and I don't think they typically stick around.

Why am I attracting them?! Speaking of that, I also attract cats, always have, is that weird?
Dragonfly79 (guest)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
I was afraid it was because of the breakdown. And like I said, it was never anything really strong and as a kid, it was sort of annoying. Now that I look back and appreciate it more, I want it back. Is there anything I can do to tune into my intuition more? And yes, the breakdown has definitely made me more "inside" myself. Even though the depression and anxiety is gone, I am constantly worried that it will return.
Tiffany006 (2 stories) (30 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
I agree that your abilities left because of the breakdown. You really just needed a break from it. The fact that your grandfather had a gift, should show you that you do also, as well as your son. Abilities are something that is passed down. I actually got mine from my great aunt.
You have to decide if it's something that your willing to embrace and if it's a path that you want your son to take. Your not crazy nor your son. Just gifted!

Hope it helps!
kkcoolcat (1 stories) (18 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
It seems that your powers went because of your breakdown. I think your powers stopped because you didn't want them and you sort of locked inside your self. Does that make sense? Anyway, it seems that your son may be developing powers and that maby, now that you are getting 'better', your powers are coming back too.
PsychicGirl (2 stories) (9 posts)
15 years ago (2009-05-21)
your powers may be gone now but guess what there going to come back way stronger so just hold in there

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