The Unrising Fog

I have only recently turned to the topic of empaths and sensitives to try and decipher the feelings I have had my entire life. From what I have gathered, I'm not even sure where to place myself... I understand that empaths have the ability to sense truth and emotion, from all manner of lifeforms.

This I sense in myself, yet also I feel as though I can feel 'spirits, or energies. I'm not even sure if they can all be grouped as human. I feel constantly distracted, as if called out to by hundreds of voices I cannot truly hear. It is as if I walk through an unrising fog, in which I feel that I sense the past, and vaguely remember the future. I finish others sentences regularly, and sense thoughts more and more often, yet I also sense that the 'entities' I feel are drawing nearer to me.

I feel all at once as though there are things tearing at me from the other side of a veil I cannot touch, while things nearer call for something. What I do not know; but still I feel that this veil is eternally fragile, I fear that If I can not learn to understand my 'gifts' that I may one day not be able to stay the cacophony of senses that feel so near to me. A few weeks ago I was in an antique store with my family, and again I felt as though I was being spoken to, though I heard no voice, no words. Only the vague sense of wanting.

Strangely, my mother told me as we left the store that she had bought me a Christmas gift, an antique Ouija board. I'm unsure if this is significant, but I feel strange about the coincidence. I recently learned that my great great grandmother was an empath of sorts, she could sense death in the family, she said she would see a white horse and know that death was near. My great great grandmother died on February eleventh, the day that I was born.

Also, I am unsure of any significance this may hold, but I thought to inquire as to what kind of work 'paranormal investigators' get into, but the moment I looked into this online I was overcome by such a strong emotion to desist the search as I have ever felt... I cannot describe the negativity I felt. This is my story, at least the 'gist' of it, I hope someone may have counsel to help me through the fog in which I roam.