I'm really apprehensive to submit this, but I'm so confused I think I need help. I've been pouring over stories submitted and feel at home.
I think I've always known I was different. When I was younger, I could tell time without looking at a clock face. I could tell my mother when it was noon, on the dot.
I've had dreams where things happen to loved ones. I had a dream where my grandmother had a heart attack. Two days later, it occurred. There have been multiple times this has occurred, not just this one time. As I've gotten older this has subsided.
When it comes to the radio, I'm able to hum the first few bars of the song before it comes on. I don't mean after the DJ has announced the song... I mean when it goes from one song to the next, without announcement or warning. This still continues today.
I have experiences when I'm driving. Lights will turn off. They won't even flicker anymore, they just shut off. When I've been living in an area for a bit, I know which ones will shut off on my drive and expect it now. They never fail me. It's only street lights... Never house lights or the like. The next morning they will be on, and just those "designated" lights will shut off. All others will be on. This sounds crazy.
In addition to these small experiences, I am insanely sensitive to what others feel. My husband constantly is telling me to let others have their emotions and not let it affect me. However...it's like a piece of them becomes a part of me. I can pick up on negative feelings, happy feelings... You name it. I feel like when I meet someone, I can notice certain things about them, I have no clue what, and know part of their past within a few short minutes. I don't know how or why... I just do. It's not often that I'm wrong. Many people, once a friendship has been fostered, will ask me how I knew to say a certain phrase to them to cheer them up and not let them become sad or depressed about something when they haven't given me any verbal cues/words to express their feelings. I haven't an answer for them except "I just thought of it".
I don't know what any of this means, I don't know if I means that I have abilities or what. I feel insane for even writing this... But I can't keep ignoring things that are happening around me.
Any me toos or advice for someone feeling completely and utterly raw?