While I realize that the subject of the matter is quite vague; I could not figure out just what to put as a subject. This is my first post on this particular website and I hope that I receive kindness here. All of my life I have been able to sense things about people. "This person will end up hurting me if I get involved with them" has been a common thought. Against all good sense, I have ignored that thought and gut feeling many times and definitely regret doing so later on when it proves to be true. When someone does something that will hurt me, even if I have no idea what is happening. I immediately sense who it is that is doing something that would cause me harm and that they are doing something that would cause me harm.
In fact, the last time it happened after worrying over it for days I ended up in a disgraceful drunken stupor, covered in dirt and snuggled up to a fourwheeler nestled snuggly into its' trailer, I might add. Of course I regretted my actions the next day, but many times I have had extreme emotional fall outs that have caused rash actions. Each time those emotional trials, although at the time are unexplained, are later found out to happen just as something terrible is happening miles away with no prior knowledge.
My mood does tend to revolve around those surrounding me, however I feel that that is normal; considering that any one person put into a room full of emotional people would soon have those emotions "rubbed off" on them. My family considers me to be a sensitive of sorts in regard to anything supernatural in nature. However that is another story. A rather long, drawn out, one at that.
Needless to say, I know when someone is going to use me and I know when someone is going to hurt me. The main reason I have counts is because one person in particular, in all of my years of knowing her. I could never sense anything from her. We did tarot readings together. We had sleep over. We spoke on a daily basis. Yet I still procured nothing. I was completely blindsided when she destroyed my heart in a way that only a long friendship (of over 12 years) could.
I never considered myself to be an empathy. Yet everything I read regarding what exactly I sense leads down that path. The only thing that doesn't add up is the "can't watch any movies etc. With suffering etc." bit. I absolutely love gore. I can watch Sweeney Todd for hours on end and grin maniacally every time a throat is slit without fail. So, the question remains, empathy? Or just overly sensitive?