Realizing that you've lost control of a situation you thought was safe months too late is a very scary thing.
Spending time with my cousin was always an awesome thing. She's 6 years older, psychically sensitive also, a Leo like me and fun. We could snap to the same wavelength in an instant. I was 18 - 20 at the time and we were constant companions. Sadly, she had already been going blind for about 10 years so you could imagine how keen her other senses were.
We exchanges stories of occurrences we had but never tried to manipulate anything. We were so young.
It came to us. Our moms were downstairs twittering about this pendulum thing that could swing to tell you yes and know and even spell things out! We knew we needed to get our hands on it.
Without a consideration to how it worked we began.
It was silly at best. We thought that maybe it swung a couple of times on its own. That was all it took to keep us coming back for more.
Skip forward a few months. We had been practicing using the pendulum on the little various boards that came with it nearly every other day. It's so odd how hooked we became. It did indeed tell us more and more. How cleaver we were to build the skill to make the thing work! We were so in charge and big headed about it all.
She would record and ask the questions. Somewhere around the second or third week it had become very difficult for me to ask questions or outwardly communicate and also operate the pendulum so we went with this as just part of it.
My disconnect began to grow until I simply started to go away. I very remotely felt the odd tones leaving me that did not belong to me. We didn't need the board anymore. All I needed to do was hold the pendulum and zone out. I went into a sort of holding area while the 'other' character would pass in and then out. One I particularly recall being allowed in on from the side was a small, sick boy who was very far away. We attempted to bring him comfort and cheer. My cousin had to make them go at times. None were very unfriendly though so we continued.
We decided that if we had guardian spirits we had heard of we would try and contact them! Angels. Such a beautiful and exciting thought to have a relationship with the angle that has always been there.
Benon was her's and mine was Zyander.
Not having a clue about what all of this was doing to my energy body I began to get odder and odder. My disconnect was carrying over into daily life. Having sensitivity already was sometimes tiring enough and brought on migraines but this was too much. I was constantly sick. "Things" would be forever banging around, pulling sheets, pulling mirrors off vanities and just attempting to terrify me during any down time I had. Depression and the feeling that some of the spirits I hosted weren't fully gone persisted! I truly believe I was possessed by multiple spirits.
Before complaining at all to my cousin she tearfully called and told me she was giving up the pendulum and seriously wished for me to do the same. Benon had appeared to her in a very real dream, holding, cajoling and comforting her in a beautifully maternal way (in which she had needed at the time) and then all of a sudden gnashed her teeth. I can't remember the things she had swore at her but the darkness of it all was revolting. I, too, felt the sickening, lecherous presence of Zyander in ways I'd rather leave for the moment.
We bound the boards and the pendulum. We prayed to Jesus for forgiveness and did all we could to close what we had opened without delving deeper.
Some very different people randomly came into our lives and shared with us that the Blood of Jesus cleanses and purifies and that it is our birthright. We have been freely given this supremely powerful gift through the sacrifice of God's Son. It was the only way. THE BLOOD OF JESUS CLEANSES YOU FROM ALL SIN AND GUILT (1 JOHN 1:7) Being newly cleansed I had to learn that you are tidy but very open. Any that wants to return sure will, and with it bring others. So I had to learn to protect myself. From Ephesians 16:13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. 16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; 17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, (meaning to pray for others - which is a tactical maneuver if you think about it. Say you can cure disease. To keep from getting it you cure all you are in contact with.)
I recall several very strong instances between learning to cast out and learning to keep out the entities. When staying with my cousin overnight I slept upstairs and she down. I woke in a panic irrationally fearing for her life. I "saw" the psychotic intent of her killer and all that was happening. The power in the condo surged off (I've always had this thing with electricity) which I believe was all of the excess energy from me blowing it out then everything was clear again.
After learning to cast out then shield I came to my cousin's house where she also had been having violent activity. I purified myself by asking for forgiveness of my sins. I cast the spirits into a tree outside, cleansed the home and bound the tree. They didn't return to my knowledge.
Once I decided that I would guard and protect myself channeling only the Holy Spirit (whatever that means to you) I was given more solid insight and became a wiser person less self-absorbed and more useful in the world around me. Giving can do great things for lifting depression. Taking care of yourself and spending time with your Higher Power is time you will never regret. There are so many mysteries and everyone wants to be an explorer. My advice is to make sure the unknown won't destroy your soul and if you can't be sure of that, then consider yourself at risk. The good news is that you can always be given a new heart!