For some time now (about a year now) I have been having a strange feeling, it is a kind of energy with a strange heat that comes from my palms or a just over my palms. I have been thinking on what it is, I have never felt anything like this before.
While I trying to figure out what this is, and what it is good for, I am having a sick sense of power, don't even know why, but it feels like I am stuck, I can't focus my energy to do anything, it's just the same old heat, thou sometimes hotter than normal. I think the hottest and strongest time was, when I held my hands about 40-50 cm apart form each other and I could feel the same heat as concentrated as my hands only hand been a couple of centimeters apart, and much hotter than my body heat. I have tried to talk with one of my friends how knows more than I do about this, but no luck there.
As I said before I feel stuck, I just can't open my mind it seems like, I seriously need some help, I feel like something different, something I don't know... Powerful maybe? I just want to find out what this is and how to make it work with me. To just make it evolve, to make myself evolve, I am so curious about this "new" thing I have discovered.
I really hope someone can help me with this, I myself am running out of ideas how to discover what I possess.