My Name is Katherine, and I am really worried about my abilities going away. I first recognize them when I was around 13 years old but realized that I had them since a young age. The one that I recognized first was my empathy which I had been using a LOT without knowing to help my friends with several things in their lives, by feeling what they were feeling and knowing the real intention behind their words and from others involved, that way I advice them on what to do with relationships and stuff; but though I have my empathy highly developed I think I also have a little telepathy, precognition by dreams, I see shadow people and once or twice I've seen a ghost, and some more that I don't know really well how to explain or denominate. Though I've tried to develop the others (apart from empathy) I'll have many problems 'cause though I really feel the need to improve them, many times fear pulls me back.
Now I am 18, and for a while most of my abilities have been disappearing, except for the empathy that hasn't go away completely but it has diminished A LOT, an scary LOT, I don't know how to live without my empathy. It's too weird for me not to be sure of what people are feeling. I must say sometimes it has created problems for me, but I mastered it at a very young age and really quickly and I used to have an incredible control on it, now, with the others disappearing slowly, it seems that it is fading away...
I'm really worried that somehow I am subconsciously denying them or something like that because of my age, because of the changes in my life (going to college) or because I have NOBODY to talk about them freely, and the people that I've tried with (except for one friend that is not with me anymore) don't really believe me and make me doubt myself making me think "isn't it a coincidence?" "am I really psychic?" "If I am is not like I'm a very good one". Things like that.
I would really like some help! Is it possible that they go away FOREVER? That if I keep growing into an skeptic (which I don't consider myself at all) adult they go entirely away?
And how can I stop my fear to seeing spirits and ghost? I knew (when my abilities were fine) that if I didn't had so much fear and focused I could have seen or hear them, but fear always stopped me.
I'm really worried I feel that with every minute I'm loosing the opportunity to recover them.
Any kind of help is welcome!
Sorry If It's written a little weird, english isn't my native language.