I've been feeling things since I was very young, especially deja vu. When I was 10, my mom showed me the first picture I ever saw of my great-grandfather, who died 20 years before I was born, and instantly I recognized him and knew his name. When I was 5, my dad drove us past a building in the middle of town. I pointed to it and said, "That's where mommy works, right?" I didn't know why I said that, because my mom worked from home. The words just flew out of my mouth, My dad surprised me by saying, "No, but she did work there many years ago. Did she tell you that?" She hadn't which confused him but eventually he let it go.
Whenever I play games, I can sense who will win even if the odds are against that person, which makes me feel like a cheater. I've taken tests in school I swear I'd seen before (which makes me feel guilty when I get a 100), and I can feel other peoples emotions. Sometimes, I'll be happy as can be, and suddenly a person walks by and I feel miserable, or vice versa. It can be very confusing, and my parents think I'm just an extremely moody person, but that's not true, because if you ask anyone who knows me well they'll tell you I'm a very shy, quiet and reserved person, rarely displaying my feelings like that. It's weird, because sometimes I don't just get there feelings, but their thoughts, too, which makes me feel invasive and mean. I can't control this and it's starting to really bug me. This all started when I was about 7.
At that point I started to realize that something just wasn't normal about what I could do. I stopped playing the games I used to with my friends, one of which was called Fairy World, where we pretended we were pixies from an alternate dimension (we were in elementary school, don't blame me), because after a game I got mad at my friend and suddenly lightning struck the house next to hers on a day that was bright and sunny. The same thing happened when I was 11, and after fighting with my friends a thunderstorm suddenly rolled in and struck her chimney, sending a brick flying and destroying the bike she'd just gotten for her birthday. After that, I started holding my feelings in and becoming less social, because if I didn't go near too many people or become friends with too many then I can't hurt them or myself.
Up until recently, I've been feeling pretty alone in my experiences. Ever other day or so, I can feel presences around me, some pleasant and some malicious. Last month, while in the bathroom, I heard a young girl's voice singing, and thinking it was my sister I got out and looked around - but it turned out my sister was at soccer practice. Later that day, I heard the same voice and saw what looked to be a 7-year-old in a long, flowing white dress and with wavy black hair. She seemed so normal, like she was really there, but after I turned away, poof! She was gone.
Recently, I've been suppressing my visions and feelings in order to keep out the chaos in my head. It works, but I get sick and have headaches much more often, and I've already missed 25 days of school this year. Whenever I go to the doctor, they can't diagnose it as anything but anxiety. I don't want to fail school (28 days is the limit) but without suppressing these feelings everything is so confusing!
Last week, a friend of mine pulled me into the bathroom from our usual group at lunch to tell me something. She told me that she could see spirits, good and bad ones. She said that a few times a week, she'll get a vision of a person and how they died, and then she'll have a telepathic communication with them and try to figure out what they're doing there. She's seen a woman drowning, a man killing his family and himself, an elderly man having a heart attack and a dog who was hit by a car. Finally, there's someone who I can talk to about this! She and I would both like to learn what our experiences mean and why they are happening.
*Please reply soon, because she's been trying to talk to her family about this and they've responded by giving her psych evals. If you know her, she is a smart, sensible and realistic person who just has paranormal experiences. Help please!*