It's been a while since I posted a new story but I could really use some help with this one.
Some background info that might or might not matter is that as a child I was always terrified of the dark. I can remember being 3 years old, attempting to sleep in my own room (which I really wanted to do), and not being able to do it. It's embarrassing to admit that even in my teens, I often crept into my parents' room and slept on the floor after waking up feeling too scared to be alone. When I moved out as a young adult into my own apartment, I often felt scared and had a hard time sleeping. So this fear has pretty much always plagued me.
As I've really come into my abilities and learned to understand them in the past couple of years, I realize there is a lot of energy and negative entities around me trying to cause fear (in addition to all of the wonderful light beings as well). Nowadays I meditate daily and do a psychic protection that works perfectly. My fear of the dark is so far gone that I can sit in the garage in my car, in the dark, and not feel any fear whatsoever.
Here's what I need help with. The other night, I had a horrible nightmare. Not that it was bloody or anything like that, but in the nightmare, there were evil entities trying to cause terrible fear in me. I was scared out of my mind. Suddenly (thankfully) I woke up, but I felt sheer terror. I wanted to scream and run to my parents. It had been a very long time since I'd felt that terrified. I kept trying to close my eyes and tell myself it was just a nightmare, but each time I tried, I felt like I was leaving my body and beginning to float, so I'd open my eyes. The thing I don't understand is that when I opened my eyes, I saw all kinds of things. Normally if you close your eyes or if you are in the darkness, you will see colors and all kinds of little shapes. That's just normal eyesight. But when I woke up, I saw all sorts of bizarre patterns. It's as if all of the energy (which looks chaotic and undefined, by nature) was suddenly in perfect alignment. Everywhere I looked, I saw perfectly neat patterns of energy, kind of similar to this, but I can't remember the exact shapes. It was rows and rows of these little shapes, and it was everywhere I looked, my ENTIRE room was filled up with this kind of stuff:
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The room felt thick with energy. I prayed and asked for protection. I quickly felt 4 angels standing next to my bed: Gabriel, Michael, Uriel, and Haniel. Once they were at my side, I was immediately able to fall asleep.
I've noticed these energy patterns in the middle of the night before, but until the other night I chalked it up to hallucinations and fell back asleep. Now this time the patterns were so clear and so obvious, I even took some time in the middle of my fear to stare at them in wonder. I even told myself that maybe there was nothing to be scared of at all. I have no clue what these patterns are! Can anyone help me with this?!