My name is Joshua Amos, and I've learned I have a certain gift. Although I'm not quite ready to announce to the world what I can do I have come to terms with my abilities. I'm a sensitive, an empath, an emotional leech.
I've looked up some of the traits of being a sensitive but the one universal trait doesn't seem to apply to me. Most empaths feel overwhelmed in crowds. Some even get physically ill. But when I'm in a crowd I start to feel as though I'm a leech feeding off of an animal. I start feeling more alive. The people around me seem to grow irritable.
I'm able to sense everything. Every emotion. And although I'm only seventeen I feel so empowered. I've also been experimenting with "projection" as I like to call it. I'm able to influence slight shifts in moods for a very short time. My longest successful attempt lasted 10 seconds. I was in a mall and I kind of pushed with my head and a ripple effect occurred. People close to me grow quite. Then people further away were silenced. I'd estimate that 30-35 people stopped talking. And none of them knew why. In all honesty it scared me.
Is it normal for a sensitive to have that much of an impact? And if not am I a danger to myself? I'm in control of my gift but it still scares me. I know this seems difficult to believe but I come to you speaking only truth. What advise can you give me?
My mom is or was an empath but she couldn't shield like I can. So when she learned she locked her gift away. Is empathy genetic? How can I develop my abilities even further? What is my purpose?