Alright, I haven't posted in a long time but I am absolutely stumped by this. It's been happening for around 7 years (in the story I mentioned it in I said two, I honestly didn't give much thought to the period of time I'd experienced it because of how excited I was to share it) but I thought nothing of it until I noticed a pattern. I did post about it in a previous post that's called "Over Sensitivity To Others Energy?" but I don't think I went too much in depth other than a small description and I seemed to have left out a lot of details. I will kind of explain and also hopefully explain as to why I left them out of it in this post. Anyway, I am here and I'm hoping someone knows why it happens the way it does.
So recently I started to give thought to the chills I get. They are usually really intense but they can be small too. Usually I get an odd feeling at the base of my neck and it spreads through out my back and shoulder and I get very twitchy for a few seconds. My eyes roll back sometimes and my head jerks in an odd direction, sometimes I feel like I'm going to be sick, sometimes my breathing hitches. When my head jerks its kind of shaky and it it tenses my neck and back and shoulders. My left shoulder rolls and it kind of looks like I'm trying to get something off my shoulders. Sometimes they are so strong it hurts which is kind of alarming. I've noticed it's when I'm around people who are very negative. Sometimes I'm in public and it happens or when I'm in a new age store (most likely due to the crystals and overwhelming energy of just about everything in the store).
I have gone to the doctor, there isn't anything physically wrong with me to cause it so I'm more confused as to why it's so intense.
An example of when it's happened is when my mom and I went to Bread Company to grab some food for dinner; we were standing in line waiting for our order and I got one of those intense chills and I felt like I was going to be sick and I almost was. I wanted to switch places with my mom but I turned around and saw three people walking towards me. One of the people stuck out to me and it was a man who was kind of hunched over and he looked kind of angry. I wanted to get away from him. He didn't feel right to me. It didn't sit well at all.
Another example of this is when I was continuously hanging out with a very very cloudy dark individual I now know is a sociopath. I would almost constantly get these chills and he thought it was great. That's when it'd usually hurt. I would be around him so much though that I'd mirror his thought process, his attitude, I'd have the same lack of motivation and I was very scared of speaking against his "facts" because he'd get mad and try to convince me he was right so I'd stop. So I couldn't -when around him- pinpoint anything and it was like flying in a fog.
I have more examples but I think those two are enough at the moment. That's when it's involuntary. I've only read about light, tingly chills that people get when spirit guides and angels are around. None of it sounds like what happens to me. I've also read that you can't control those, you can't focus on it and make them happen. I can. If I focus, I can feel it slowly grow just above the middle of my shoulder blades but it always physically starts at the base of my neck. I can control the intensity too. That's a huge reason I went to the doctor for it.
It has gotten stronger since I got away from the individual a little under a month ago. I had been around him for almost four years constantly helping him, or thinking I was. That whole time I now realize I was basically sapped and almost none of my abilities were usable and I didn't notice even half of what I do now. So them now being more noticeable is overwhelming and I do question whether I'm just psyching myself out now or not. So I wanted to post this. Maybe I am psyching myself out, either way I'd love to have some kind of answers so I can kind of have some peace of mind. If you've read this far, thank you. I hope you or someone else is able to help me figure this out.