Here is something I could use a little bit of help with; recently I started hearing my grandmother, and trust me I know that voice even though I have not heard it since I was 4, she has a WAY with words... Anyways, what I am trying to figure out is lately she is constantly saying my name over and over again and I can feel her in my head I can hear her talking. I continue to keep shutting her out because well every time I do listen to anyone who has passed I freak out and continue with just pretending not to hear them (yes not healthy and at the same I feel completely insane). However, I have gotten enough positive feedback that I am not too worried about the response. So anyways, when I have been sitting alone and it is too quiet, you know how normally you get that white noise you hear. Just random static? Yea I wish I had that! I just continuously get nagged at to listen turn around and "missy you better listen to me." I know deep down she has something important to tell me and I can feel that it is not something bad but something about when I'm going to start having children (I'm 25 and want kids but scared to really push my husband with it.) I get like this warm feeling talking about it and feel like it is going to be sometime really soon, I keep having all these weird dreams where I see my grandpa Bobby (also deceased) and he is telling me something or other that my dad is doing wrong.
The bad part is these are relatives that have passed away many years ago, I love and miss them but I lost 4 relatives in a week I want to see and hear them come through whether I am awake or not. The way that each of them died was really tragic and very, very gory so I mean if not let me see them I can at least hear them right? Therefore, I figured if I could hear my grandmother so often why are the others not coming through. Is she not allowing it because she is being so persistent? See where I'm going? Other than meditating what other ways could I get my grandmother to stop being so frantic about what I need to hear from her? Any suggestions?
Any and all suggestions will be taken seriously thank you so much for your time and help everyone!