When I was 10, I was raped. Of course I was terrified for awhile, but now I'm feeling something different. I never said anything to anyone about it and I kept it all to myself. A few months after I was raped I saw the man on the news being arrested for rape.
I've been having a lot of vivid dreams, flashbacks and flash-forwards. I'm scared that he escaped from jail and I think that he thinks that I told on him and I'm the reason he got arrested - he told me that if I ever told anyone about what he did, he was going to find me and kill everyone close to me.
My flash-forwards consist of the man coming into my home, binding me, and making me watch as he tortured and mutilated my family. I'm terrified because I don't know if he's still in jail or even if he managed to escape.
I've had dreams that have "come true" before - like when my grandmother died I had that dream the night before she died, or often I have dreams about a day and in that week I have the exact same day.
I'm extremely paranoid and I don't know what to think or do. I haven't told my parents or any of my friends nor do I plan to - if I do, my parents will just put me back into a locked mental hospital and I do not want to go back there. I also don't know which jail the man was sentenced to, or which state, or anything.
I honestly don't know why I'm sharing this - it's not anybody knows him, or if he's in jail or if not. I don't think that anyone can do anything to help me. I'm so terrified. If you have any input, please, PLEASE comment!