Ever since I was little, I had ear problems. In 5th grade, I had ear surgery. When I was in 8th grade, I had a check-up on my ears. The doctors told me that I might hear some noises, like a train passing by and that it was normal, but that's not what happened. Some time after, I kept on hearing voices. They were creepy voices that kept repeating my name. I got really scared. I would tell my sisters & mom, and they were worried. My dad didn't believe me one bit. My dad thought I was lying and making things up because he referred to the doctors saying that I would just hear noises of cars passing by, not voices. Those voices didn't stop. My sisters & mom all prayed for me. They tried praying for the voices or "Satan" to get away from me. Sadly, nothing worked. I was scared every night and day. They kept saying my name over and over. The only places I felt safe was at school and church, where I knew I'd be surrounded by lots of people. I would do my homework and hear the voices call my name, and I tell my twin sister. She just told me to ignore it. One time I was crying to my pastor about it. He prayed for me. I don't remember when it stopped but eventually it did.
I had a lot of bad experiences on bed. I would wake up not breathing and moving. I would feel pressure on my chest and some whispering for me to lay on my back so they can sit on me. I would fight to move and refuse to let it control me. There were times when I would wake up at 3 or 4 am. This one time I felt a finger poke my right shoulder. One time I felt a pull from my blanket. I try to search all this up. I had a crazy idea thinking I had Schizophrenia. I don't think I do. I mean, I hear voices, but I don't see shadows, or I don't hallucinate. I researched and found "Sleep Paralysis". It's when you're awake in your nightmares during REM sleep, and you feel like you can't move and breathe. It's when you see your bedroom and a spirit sitting on top of you or near you. You feel scared. You try to move. You suddenly wake up in reality. One time I was having a "sleep paralysis" episode, and I remember seeing a girl with long black hair laying on top of me. She was digging her head into my left shoulder and wrapping her hands around my waist, saying my name in a creepy voice. I for sure have this, but science can't prove everything.
Also, there are times when I hear breathing or my name being called random times at day. During nights, I'd hear breathing in the direction that I know is not coming from my sisters. I may have ear problems, but those spirits make sure only I hear them. At night when I'm trying to sleep and close my eyes, I can see a white or dark light flash from the corner of my eyes. I heard it's when spirits are checking up on you. Is that true? I never tell anyone about what I go through. I keep everything to myself. Do I have clairaudience (when you can hear spirits/voices)? Please help me. I've been wanting to find the truth about me. I don't think I have much of a strong power as other psychics, but I've been wanting answers to at least make me feel like these weird happenings make sense. Thank you very much for reading and listening.