I am exhausted, truly. I've had some type of paranormal experience ever since I could remember myself, although the execution has involuntarily changed throughout the years.
One thing which remained constant is the hearing through to other planes. I first remember myself hearing my name being called, people having loud conversations as the water ran over my head in the shower, loud incoherent voices chatting in my ears, disembodied voices talking about me as I slipped into my most aware state. Lately, it's loud high pitched sounds driving me insane until they disappear and are replaced with a total dead silence. A silence which literally blocks out any sound that should physically exist.
The constant experience of the last two months has been this, followed by me sitting up in my bed in the middle of the night because I'm certain there are dozens of beings surrounding the room even though I can't see them. I haven't slept in so long it's depressing.
Then there's the fact I have convinced myself I have been visiting multiple dimensions. I always had sleep paralysis but now it changed. I would open my eyes and see the walls in my room morph, I would see people walking around at a different time of the day, wearing out of date clothes engaging in activities. I started having a series of dreams which were not symbolic in nature but followed a pattern, followed a number of spirits I would engage in these otherworldly adventure with.
Incredibly vivid dreams I still remember. A life away from this one.
All I know is that I'm tired and although I embrace the dimensional travelling (it's not astral) the fact that these spirits have been incredibly active these last few weeks is concerning. I know how to protect myself, but they just won't give up!
I know they are there because I've had episodes and dreams were I open my eyes and see dozens of them staring down at me, but I just want uninterrupted sleep for at least a week as I'm constantly agitated and moody.