I want to share this only because I have noticed the visits are becoming more frequent. I can go a week or days without sensing them and there is no meaning. I am married for 28 years and my wife has shared in one physical encounter and was present, in the dwelling, during a second. Since I was younger I had sensed many things around me and now I can feel them. I have seen like many the movies and read the books, but it is nothing like that. What I do know is not only are they with me, but they always somehow relay to me they are demonic. I have tried to rid them out of my mind and find reasons for the feelings, and I get some reprieve for a day or 2 and a calm.
I generally wake around 4 am or if one gets uncomfortably close. I have filled my home with dogs as they alert me when I get caught off guard. I truly write this as I cry because my dogs have been so loyal and have shielded me for so long. I have 3 dogs currently one I keep in my room at all times at night and let all three remain with me before bed. 6 of my have already passed away and remain in urns at my house.
My most protective dog, Sadie, was the last one taken from me and I feel the other three that are left will not stand up as she did. Sadie never left my side when she was with me. One morning I felt the presence of a new demon as I came to the basement. I asked it to stay away. My basement is fully finished with Rec room and TV area along with Sauna and tread mill. The Demon did not respect my wish of it staying away. I am pretty good at maintaining my demeanor while the encounter happens. This one was different it got very close it came up up behind me and I could only think I needed lights on and Sadie. I asked in Jesus' Name I cast you out. Looking for anything to get me calm. I was not deterred to the Garage door to get Sadie, but I felt it around me.
I got to Sadie, Blackie, Midnight as quick as I could Jasmine would not come downstairs. Sadie at the door when I opened it sat immediately and ears pinned up. She let out a whine and got into pose with her hair directly up on her back. I tried to get her to come in to the room, but she refused. I went in the garage with them. I felt safe it is odd she always makes me feel safe. She has German Shepard in her and this was the first time I saw her fearful. I carry a phone with me always and started to film her reaction with me and the demon presence. I carried her to the room she fought me the entire time until we made it to the TV area. I let her down she would not go back to the sauna room. She seemed to be in mindset with me after we heard the other 2 dogs still in the garage growl. They would not come out, but audibly can be heard. I tried going back down the hallway, but Sadie was very resolute in wanting out of the house. I opened the door and we both made it to the backyard about 50 yards from the house before I could get her to respond to commands.
As I write this Sadie has been taken from me. I do not feel the other dogs can do more than warn me. Sadie and I played her last night around 8 pm in August. I went to get the dogs to come back in at 10:30 pm and found Sadie dead. A lot of blood from her nose she was very stiff in the couple of hours between playing and her end. When we played just before coming in the house I typically give them a treat. Greenies or Bacon flavored treats at the rear door. That night she did not react to me as if it were me. She was aloof as I stood in the door way. My wife was calling and I believe as I was heading in I missed fully what Sadie was trying to alert me to. I miss her and the presence I still feel. I know have my wife hearing things as well and I fear the demon feels emboldened.
I have went and got White Sage and altered the dogs evening rotations to free roam of the house.
Deep in my heart I fear that I know what the demon wants, but I DON'T want any part of it. I also know this never goes away, but the small things I do I just want them to know I do not want anything to do with them. There is an EVIL in me. I work everyday and night to keep it buried.
I feel on my own. I have other experiences and am not sure if talking to others will help. I have spoken with a Wiccan Penny in West Virginia near Nitro. I was drawn to her and had to retreat as she made me to comfortable with accepting the EVIL within and wanting it released. She seemed to invite when I am trying to repel.