I am trying to figure out what these gifts are that I have, have had them since I was little and they are becoming more powerful.
Okay so here goes:
I am 25 and female. I do have a simian line on my right hand, am not sure but believe It may have something to do with my abilities, again I do not know much about the simian crease or any psychic stuff at all, but do somehow know that my feeling is correct and it may be tied to emotional thinking/ feeling.
I am confused, do not understand any of it but have been looking things up lately to find out what's going on. I am either psychic or have lost my mind.
I know one of them that I have, is called "clairaudience"
Examples: I know answers to questions sometimes and I can say with confidence that it is the correct answer, even having no prior knowledge on a subject it just pops into my head! Or when someone's lying I know it and I feel chills and a thought just pops up and I think your lying you were at _____. Then I say it at the person is dumb founded and asks how I know. I just tell them I don't know how I know I just do.
Sometimes I hear music. Sort of like an ear worm, but it's not, it's in parts of a song. Such as " it will rain" by bruno mars popped in my head, I looked outside and it was sunny, about 2 hours later it rained. One time I was laying next to my ex and suddenly a song lyric came to mind " you know you have the keys to my heart" I recognized the song as brian mcnights back at one. I still don't know what that meant. With him, I could hear his thoughts but was getting confused because I thought something then thought. Wait a minute, that wasn't my thought. That was his! I can look at him know and sense what he feels and what he says. His love is overwhelming for me but his thoughts are sad and frightened and full of doubts. He can do the same with me. I used have to stop and think. Wait I don't feel that way that way. Those aren't my emotions those are his. I get confused between other people's emotions and my own. I also asked him what his favorite color is in my mind (I thought please don't say blue please don't say blue. Blue is what someone picks when they don't know who they are yet) he said " blue". Man I knew right then he wasn't going to be around this time for much longer. He can read my mind too and sense how I feel also. It really pissed me off. Lol.
Anyway, my ex had disappeared on me and had no clue where he was, where he was living, nothing. He just "ran" because he was scared. One day, at night, I was walking down the street in a different city than the last time I saw him. I sat down on the steps and turned to look at a the business sign. It said Chicago Title. I had a gut feeling but I didn't know why I was getting these butterflies and chills. I start walking towards the bus and a loud almost booming thought came into my mind " he is here. He lives here in this city, he's not far away. He''s near me". It was something I knew not to question, I just knew it was the truth. A few weeks later I find out that he did in fact live in that city, with his new girlfriend who worked at Chicago Title.
I do have strong empath abilities, and don't know how any of this is possible. Its freaking me out.
Example: I had a pain on my left side of my mouth, my tooth hurt really bad. I had the shooting pain a couple times but figured maybe I needed to see the dentist. A day or two after, my left side started to hurt a lot. My current boyfriend (not the ex) who was at work, texted me and said he had a mouth infection.
I texted him and asked him: is it on your left side of your mouth?
He responded, yes, why?
I said I knew it was because my mouth had been killing me for the past couple of days, and not to worey I will take care of you when you get home. I told him to pick pick up chamomile tea and it would sooth the infection. Now let me tell you I have never EVER Drank chamomile tea, nor do I know why I even said it would help. The word chamomile tea popped into my mind and I knew it would fix him up. I then looked it up and sure enough that's what they use the tea bags for.
Almost positive I have clairsentience. I physically feel the pain and emotions of another, and know exactly what they are feeling. I cannot watch the news, I cannot even watch bad parts to the movie it hurts me deeply. I am so sensitive and I can't handle it, it's too much for me. I can't go to crowded areas because I become very very dizzy and overwhelmed, I thought it was just a panic attack of some type but it actually just drains me. I can sense when someone is good or bad, I can meet a person and know the addictions they are troubled with. I don't know how but I can meet someone and know that they have been sexually abused.
I can sense a person's intentions, I know when someone should not be trusted, I can tell a person's character off the bat. I get these cold chills when someone is doing something they shouldn't and are lying to me. I get this butterfly feeling in my stomach weeks before someone will die. My friends mom was dying of cancer I had been getting bad feelings just awful gut feelings like I knew death would happen soon. I finally told her and she said she was getting them too. About a week later her family called and told her mom was on her death bed. We got her a plane ticket and I didn't know the flight details. Or what airport she would be at. I had no idea but she missed her connecting flight, I had a feeling I needed to get a hold of her asap. I was frantic. I closed my eyes and immediately knew to call the airport in wa to have her paged and to call me. Somehow I knew she made it there. She called me and I told her to hurry, her mom didn't have much time, she wouldn't make it there on time and that I was sorry for her loss. She was angry at me for saying that. By the time she made it to the hospital her mom had already passed away.
I have dreams that come true. 3 days after I moved to my friends house, I had a disturbing dream, I called my mom crying and told her that I dreamt my friend would kick me out one week before I got my apartment (at the time of the dream I hadn't even started looking yet) and I would end up homeless, I was really upset and crying. I told my mom that the dream was so real and that I was positive it was going to happen. I just knew it would. My mother told me to calm down and I was just stressed out, everything was fine and it was just a dream. 2.5 months later everything I dreamt came true down to the t. She kicked me out just like the dream, I ended up with all my bags with the sun beating down one me outside homeless just like I had dreamt. The apartment in my dream was the same apartment I moved into.
The night my good friend died I was trying to go to sleep. I couldn't. I had a horrible panic and dread in my stomach I knew something was going to happen, someone was going to die my first thought was to call my sister, T to warn her that something bad was going to happen. But I wasn't sure what it was. I sat there with the phone in my hands trembling. I thought okay if I call her shes going to think. I'm crazy. So I didn't call her. I got very little sleep. I just lay awake crying all night. I chocked it up to a horrible panic attack. The next two days I missed her calls and didn't check the voicemail until that Monday. She was on the other end bawling, she said clint had died right next to her in her bed with my pink blanket on him. He died in his sleep. I was on disbelief. I feel that if I would have warned her I could have saved his life. I just didn't know what my gut was telling me.
I also had a dream that my friend came to visit me after his death. It was real. He was there. I had no idea why he came to see me and not his other family or friends he was closer to, he told me because I would understand. In my dream I knew I was dreaming. I knew he was dead and I knew he was there. When I asked him why he said I just stopped by to say hello I said okay cool, but your dead aren't you? He said yeah I died I just wanted to see you now because I don't think they will let me come back, not for a while. I could smell him it was him. We hung out and talked and finally he said that he wasn't allowed to stay any longer and he had to go. I asked him of I would see him again or at least dream of him again and he said I am going to heaven, and no I don't think they will let me come back, I can try though. I cried and cried he told me not to be sad and that he was happy. Bit still very pissed at his dad lol he made it clear he didn't want me to tell him certain information I cried so much hugged him and then he walked out the front door I turned around for a split second after I saw him walking down the drive way turned back around and he was gone.
I have had a dream of the rapture. I saw a map at a church me and others were gathered at. It was in an odd shape, was divided into four sections 3 of which would be burned by fire. Only 25 percent was not. I was told in my dream that "when they come, tell them you are Christian". I hadn't had religion on my mind at all lately, and yes I am a Christian but not the bible thumping type. I want to go to church but I get so busy and you know. Anyway, The next day I was so upset I looked up the end of the world stuff. Couldn't find anyone except crazy people crap then followed links from google news. I came across the map and just about died of shock. It was the same map on my dream, four sections. Everything. I have never in my life seen that map, or anything associated with it consciously subconsciously. Not on the news not on a movie. The dream was the first time.
Also had a dream of a satellite view of the united states. I was asleep woke up in my dream check the clock on my phone it was 1 something o'clock I immediately shut my eyes (the whole time I was sleeping) when I woke up again (still dreaming the time was around 612pm-620pm. I then got the flash of the map A lot of the map was covered in water along the west coast, only a small part in the middle and along the upper east coast. The map flashed I saw it briefly realized I was asleep and scared and woke up. I went to look at my phone it was dead. I plugged it in turned it on and it was the same time that I saw on my phone in my dream.
This dream I had a scary dream I think might come true. I dreamt of going to visit a friend. Don't know who? And when we walked into the house, something was strange something told me don't go near the room but I was being led near the room. I looked over and saw a man I looked closer and realized that man was murdered. I heard the other man snoring so I don't think he was dead. I just walked in on a murder scene. There was lots of blood. A white man had been killed and another man was next to him sleeping on his stomach. Both faces eerie turned the other direction, there was lots of detail, I don't recall knowing them but the man who walked in the room. With me to show me what happened disappeared all I could think was okay don't touch anything and kept thinking omg, omg. I saw blood on the walls there was a struggle I didn't understand why was there and had walked in on what appeared to be a murder. I just kept thinking omg God please get me out of here please wake me up. I then woke up, I am worried because I have a gut feeling something did happen or will happen. I didn't know any of the people, but someone was killed in my dream. I hope it's just a dream but it scaring me and I am worried sick. I worry.
I know things without knowing, I have no idea how I know them and it startles me. I Have had times where I can actually read another person's mind, which has been verified. I have had experiences where I touch an object and have visions. Such as a loaf of bread at the grocery store I get a flash of an argument etc. I have had dreams that come true of future events, but sometimes they are just dreams and sometimes they come true. I have had dreams of loved ones visiting me after they die. Have gut feelings before a loved one dies but have not been able to control any of my abilities. Sometimes I can predict the future. I get shooting gut pains right before someone calls. I get good and bad butterflies. I can't always tell if my emotions are my emotions or if they are someone else's. It's horrible. I have tried controlling it but it's really hard, I feel like they just happen when they happen. I have a hard time understanding what my gut is telling me, I don't know how to process my gut feelings into actual premonitions. Half of the time I feels these pains and nearly double over and don't know what its telling me. I can remotely find someone. Or get close to finding them. I sit. Clothes my eyes and I can see it in my mind. I need help controlling these gifts the empath part is really hard. I'm not into all that weird crap with chakras. I looked into how to keep a bubble and all that but its not working. My abilities are stressing me out. I don't know how to handle them. Can someone tell me what kind of gifts I seem to have and what I can do?
I have also heard something once while I just got into bed. Right next to my bed on the right, I was looking up at the ceiling shut my eyes for a second (was not asleep I had a lot of caffeine so I was pretty wired) and to my right I felt like a black presence was next to me, it seemed evil. Just not nice. It had a scary voice. I was too scared to look over so I shut my eyes tight praying that the black ghost thing would go away. I heard it say in a scary voice jennifer jennifer go to the orb. I almost started bawling. I don't even know what the hell an orb is but whatever it was I am not so sure I should listen to it. I laid as still as possible hoping it would go away, finally I was like okay, I'm going to look I sat straight up looked over and whatever I felt there was gone. I just cuddled with my boyfriend and was scared shiatless.
Don't get me wrong, I do not hear voices, or talk to myself nothing like that. I'm not crazy, the clairaudience I hear is like thoughts and stuff in my mind songs, sudden light bulb moments or aha moments. Not any of that skitso stuff. I am a normal everyday person. I do not suffer from any medical disease, the only thing I have is and. Not depressed, not bypolar. Not borderline. So if I am not nuts what is happening and how can I determine what I should be using this for.