It has been a while since i've written but things have been hectic notably school. But as to why I'm writing now is because lately I've been feeling afraid of being alone anywhere it's like I'm feling that if I do something bad would happen to me. I have also been sleeping for a whole night and I wake up feeling as tired if even more than before I went to sleep. I also cannot be somewhere dark alone since I feel someone breathing next to my ear.
Allinbetween had told me to use my religious prayers to protect myelf, it worked for a time but now it ony seems to hurt me physically since it gives me pain in back and my hands that gets so bad that I can't write.
On the other hand, lately I have been able to know some things before they happen, it's usually not mush like knowing why one of my friends is feeling bad even before knowing the problem, knowing if it's going to rain or not, knowing my classmates' grades before they pass the exam, but when I try to do it on purpose it doesn't work.
Berellic offered me help to years ago ago and i'm really grateful for it but even thought things got better I just have the feelinng that they are about to get worse and I really can't afford it right now since I'm senior at high school right now and the final exams are in four months.
I may sound paranoiac in some way but when I don't follow my insticts something is bound to go bad. And lately they have been on high alert for some reasons and once it's night time it only gets worse sometimes I can't even go to sleep i've also been seeing shadows following me from the corner of my eyes everywhere I may be.