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The Name That Haunts Me


I have posted two other stories on here asking if I was an empath, and some other psychic experiences that I've had. I am an Empath, a Wiccan, and maybe other things. I'm not sure what else I am so that's why I posted another story on there. If you can help me that would be great. Just go to my profile and pick on "Other possible psychic experiences?".

Now to my story:

Let me start by saying that books are my life. I love to read and write.

I was at a bookstore and I bought a book about fictional reincarnation and I saw that one of the main characters last life's name was Ethan. I didn't think much about it until I bought a second book that the main characters name was Ethan also. This book was about magickal powers. After that the name "Ethan" showed up everywhere. I have now four other books that have the name Ethan in it. In one of those books, my father had gave to me. I picked it up and literally thought to myself, "Watch there will be an Ethan in here too." I opened it up to a random page and Ethan was the first name I saw. Another book: I thought to myself, "If I see one more Ethan as a character I know for a fact that it's not a coincidence." Another main character. Ethan. I was once at a bookstore picked out a random book and it's main character was Ethan yet again. That's when I started to think that maybe I was going crazy because of this. On commercials, on signs, books. Everywhere. But then I started to do some research. I started connecting books with other books, picking out the similarities between them. I now keep all the books with the name Ethan in it or connecting to it in a little area near my headboard. I was getting very scared because I became sort of obsessed with the subject and Ethan. I thought that I was going insane for a while and I thought that I was a freak. Now that I've found this website I know maybe I'm not?

Now in all of the books there was something to do with either magick, my religion, or anything like that. I started finding the books before I became a Wiccan. Could maybe the books be pointing towards my destiny to be a Wiccan? Or does it have something to do with Ethan? Or both? Could Ethan be apart of a past life that I've had? Or maybe foreshadowing about my future?

I really think I might be losing it. But maybe not? I have these strong feelings towards the name. Like it's familiar and comforting to me. All I want to know why I'm seeing this name. It's been haunting me for about a year and a half now. The obsession over it had died down a bit but it doesn't leave out the curiosity of the subject.

Please, PLEASE. Someone help me. This has been happening for so long. And I just want some peace knowing that I'm not crazy.

I'm pretty sure that I left something out and if I did I'll post it in a comment.

Thank you so much! And thanks for all the support on me being an empath!


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SturdyUniverse (3 stories) (16 posts)
5 years ago (2019-06-14)
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so happy that I am not the only person, who has similar experience to yours. I haven't shared this part of my journey-story here yet, but I understand you very well.

I have one name, what haunts me as well. At first the first letter from that name. Later everywhere, someone speaks, put such name to a her baby, commercial posters, in social media pops up, in a dream, long-long ago a friend drew a as a stick man and put this name to him and said it is my boyfriend... (to be)

Literally this name is everywhere. 😲

But for me through dreams was said that with such name is a man, with whom I am destined to marry. Haven't met him yet, but I do feel I will one day ❤.

I do suggest for you, before going to sleep and ask, while falling asleep: What this name means for me? Who with such name is for me?

It might not happen right away, but when you ask, you should receive a message through dreams, inner-voice or visions. Having a feeling from your heart space. It depends, what sense is better evolved in you. 😉
heyitsnickiii (1 stories) (1 posts)
11 years ago (2013-05-11)
Ethan could possibly be your spirit guide or guardian angel. Never know
vergil117 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-05)
anytime. See if you could make a connection to it, perhaps get into a deep meditive trance and ask where the name comes from.:)
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-03)
I've thought of that too, but I wasn't sure... Thank you though (: 😊
vergil117 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-03)
hi, I think Ehtan maybe is an influence from your past life, your guides may be trying to get your attention with the name.
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-03)
Thank you Deathwalker86. I will try that as soon as I can (: ❤ Nova (:
Deathwalker86 (2 stories) (23 posts)
12 years ago (2012-10-03)
Your story is very interesting. I agree with previous comments. You should try to meditate to contact this "Ethan". I looked up the name "Ethan" and its meaning is Strength and Independence. Maybe "Ethan" is trying to guide you somewhere in your path. I look forward to see what comes of this.

Good luck!
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-03)
Yes, I chose Luna because I am half Spanish (My father is Spanish, but not my mother) And I always loved the name too so it kind of worked out (: Yes, I have made Book of Shadows. And all the pages are nearly filled up! And you can ask any questions about Wicca if you want to and I will try my best to answer them. (:
SkyLight (1 stories) (18 posts)
12 years ago (2012-10-02)
That's really interesting,
Did you choose Luna as the Spanish of Moon?
[I Speak Spanish] 😁
And maybe you can show me how is your religion?
I've made some research but, still I gotta keep it to myself.
Did you make your book of shadows already?:)
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-02)
Wow, I never thought Ethan may be my spirit guide. I'll have to try to meditate to find that out. Anyways, I love the moon too (: In fact my Wiccan name is Luna (:
SkyLight (1 stories) (18 posts)
12 years ago (2012-10-02)
Have you ever thought that maybe Ethan is your Spirit Guide?
Have you tried to meditate to make a connection with this "Ethan"?
About being Wiccan I think that's really cool thou!. I wish I could be one, but I feel like it would be better if I lived in city with a big forest where you can feel the nature, and enjoy the beautiful moon. (I just love the moon, I don't quite know why.)
Well, if you like to try to make a connection with this Ethan entity, I will love to hear what you experience was like, and what did he say about you joining the Wicca.
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-02)
Thank you guys for commenting on this. You really helped me (: You have no idea how much. Thank you!
Blessings Nova ❤
Cattydee (12 stories) (161 posts)
12 years ago (2012-10-01)
You said you recorded the similarities of Ethan? What are they? That could help with figuring it out. My guess is that someone or something is tryin to communicate to you. Their name could be Ethan or they are trying to reach and Ethan or need your help in finding one. Try sitting down and meditating and in the process ask for Ethan an see what happens. I you see something or hear or feel or taste or smell anything. Keep asking the question every few minutes and record what happened. It could tell you if it's someone trying to reach you or some kind of crazy past/future telling.
CsThRuH2O (guest)
12 years ago (2012-10-01)
Something is trying very hard to communicate vital information to you through synchronicity & coincidence.
Either a higher power, a guardian or some other spirit source.
If this were happening to me, I would initially take it as a positive, rather than a negative.
Think of it as a GOOD LUCK & reassurance/validation that you are being watched over & protected. Even if it appears to be vague & cryptic.
Do not view it as something from the 'otherside' that wants to be messing with you. Chances are very high that there is a very well intended meaning behind it ALL.
Perhaps Ethan will be the name of someone very special to you in sometime ❤
Nagual (guest)
12 years ago (2012-09-29)
I've had a time too, when I thought I were going crazy. Not just because I doubted it a myself, but also because people would have called me crazy. So in actuality I might have attacked myself with the opinions of others, which really don't matter in the end...

Perhaps that is what you are doing know. Imagine your words are spoken through others. If I said "I really think you are losing it..." How would that make you feel? We are so harsh towards ourselves, questioning our very own sanity, by a simple belief which goes against the current belief in reality.
I must give you credit however, for also saying "but maybe not?" So you do give yourself a little break...

If one is walking into unknown territory, don't expect the head to lead. It can't. Although the mind has amazing capabilities, it lacks the courage and faith of the heart. Imagine the mind as the old father, and heart as the child. Although the father have earned much wisdom through experiences. The child is without those experiences, so he/she is willing to try everything, open to try without judging before doing.

Unfortunately time has a habit of creating a definition of what's possible and not. Through our experiences. Ignoring the fact we are constantly in change, so we should be able to leave our hard grip on reality, so it can show itself. For our definitions of what's possible/-true and not, might shield us from being hurt. But also from experiencing life itself.

If you want peace, then reserve judgments. Imagine your questions without words, try to see instead. There is a reason the ancient oracles were called "seers" because they didn't think (judge) they saw... Let your mind cool down, You'll will definitely not go crazy.

Personally I think the name Ethan has triggered something within you, past memory perhaps. Definitely something to it, since you have probably tried to let go of it several times, but it keeps going with you until you know the reason.
Nagual (guest)
12 years ago (2012-09-29)
I took a look at the definitions of crazy and insane. To be honest it is quite a laugh to read. Because insane and crazy are merely labels for something that goes against current norms and/or views of reality. There is no distinct definition of Crazy or insane.

So, on to your question. "Could maybe the books be pointing towards my destiny to be a Wiccan? Or does it have something to do with Ethan? Or both? Could Ethan be apart of a past life that I've had? Or maybe foreshadowing about my future?"

I think your destiny will be what you allow it to be 😊 After reading a bit on wiccan, as I understand it, it is basically about reverence for nature and life. In that case it doesn't need to be a destiny, just common sense to awaken our beliefs in magic, nature and life itself.

If the head and the heart would go for a walk, and on their journey find a teared bridge. Who would go first?
The heart is capable of following itself, through emotions.

The mind however, would try to find security in past memories, abilities, thoughts, ideas etc. If no support is found, he would stop. There is no shame in that, the mind is brilliant. However, without the gentle faith of the heart, it would never see what is on the other side. Simple because it hasn't happen yet.

After they have crossed the bridge, the head will remember their success in crossing it. So next time, if the heart would be in sorrow, the head will remind the heart of the fact that they have already done it.

I've been exacly there before, where I questioned my sanity... I'll continue later have to go
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-09-29)
Does anyone else have anything else to say? I would greatly appreciate opinions. Please help. 😕
NovaStayer47 (guest)
12 years ago (2012-09-28)
Thank you PathR. That was really helpful (:
Nova ❤
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
12 years ago (2012-09-28)
You are just asking if what you believe to be truth
Is real or fiction?

In your heart you know you are being lead.
So why not trust yourself!

All of life is a circle: it has a beginning, a middle and an end.
Some of us start in the middle, but as we continue on
The circle the end is only the beginning.

Our life path is a map, and this we hold within ourself. The beginning starts with a single step to the vast wide regions of knowledge.

You are like many whom wish to have the understanding before the journey and it has been so for you.

So continue and you will find the peace, and way
You wish to behold. Do not consider other people,
Each has their own path very unique and different,
For it is a world of differences that make life's path beauty.


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