My name is Sam and this is just a story of my recent spiritual growing and well I'm also kind of wondering what some things are and I'm curious about the feedback the story would receive.
So I have recently returned to meditation after much time of growing and living life. I realized recently that I need to grow more spiritually now as I feel the time is right. These feelings came recently, the day after I turned 17, my birth date being November 8th. Proud Scorpio and Snake in Native American Zodiac:).
So what happened was, I had my first trip on magic mushrooms. It was pretty strange to say the least. A group of friends and I were hanging out on my friend's back porch, smoking a lot of weed and having a great time in celebration of my birthday. After successfully getting supremely elevated, my friend whose house we were at gave me my birthday present- 3 full mushrooms blessed by a shaman. I had never done shrooms before, much less seen any, but I had been interested for quite some time. They had white stalks, with orange colored caps, one of them having some darker coloration to the mix. They looked pretty cool. Anyways I put them aside and smoked some hash. After a bit of just chillin, I decided to take two of the shrooms, leaving the weirder colored one for last.
Now, here is one more important detail. I had not eaten all day and it was around 2:30 pm. And I took shrooms. Lol.
Anyways, it took about 20 minute to kick in after taking the first. I started feeling a swelling in my core and then an immense euphoria. There was a large mass of clouds in the sky and when I looked at them my whole body tensed up and I saw the clouds shifting and It felt incredible.
I then felt the swelling start at the base of my abdomen, and it slowly rose up through my body and out of the top of my head. I immediately felt a surge of immense energy pouring out of my body, pulsating almost. I could see auras very clearly and I could feel everyone's individual vibe (there was about 6 or 7 of us) and I felt extremely in touch with nature. The same thing happened when I took the second shroom with the swelling floating out, except it was intensified.
Energy was PULSING out of my body at this point. It was crazy. My friend sitting in front of me claimed he was tripping solely off my energy. It was awesome as I have never experienced anything like it before.
After a bit of visuals I felt I was being overwhelmed very quickly. Note that I was already Toasted before I took them. I had never been this high before. Then I started seeing my friends back door opening and I thought someone was looking at us from the inside, like a dark figure (turns out he has some crazy entities in his house and I suspect I was sensing them and vice versa) then started hallucinating and then I made the mistake of trying to fight the high. I proceeded to have a bad trip (which started at 3:33pm) then I blacked out.
Apparently what happened was I stood up, walked into my friends back yard, collapsed to my knees and started shaking. My friends caught me and put me back on the couch. All I remember was sitting like I had never got up and I was sweating profusely. I remember my friends talking about OBEs and cleansing and they gave me Rose Quartz to hold in my left hand. It was all very blurry. The entire time I felt like I was leaving somewhere and I kept saying things like "Im trying to come back to reality guys" because I literally felt like I was shifting in and out of reality while trying to control my high and stabilize my body. I felt really sick and like I was going to die.
Eventually I calmed down a bit. I felt better after I ate some cheetos because my body most likely couldn't handle the trip and I was low on blood sugar. My bad trip ended at 4:44pm. Weird huh?
So after all that I felt really really refreshed. Literally I felt like my soul was shiny and brand new. Very awesome. I also had the feeling that there is a lot of stuff I don't know about.
Anyways, Since then, I have been changing a lot. I feel like I just want people to love each other. I want soo many people to feel love. And I really appreciate life and all life forms a lot more. These are very strong feelings and I feel like this is the way I was meant to feel. I've always felt these things, but I feel I have kept them a separate part of my being for much of my life. I now realize this is how I was meant to be. I want to make people realize that we can all live together with love in our souls, with love for each other.:) I have really been trying to change my life now by ridding myself of negative feelings so that I may fully understand how we should act and live.
I feel what I was feeling while on the mushrooms was kundalini energy and my body couldn't take it. But I have been growing and I think many things have been happening to me for a reason. I have devoted much of my time to reading online about what is to come in the new age and such. I have also been meditating a lot and have been breathing energy, and practicing focusing my third eye which I can now do pretty much at will. As a result of all this I have constantly been seeing energies and auras more clearly. I was wondering if anyone else can see Blue light energies in the air that move in an electricity-like fashion? If so, what are these? Also, during meditation I hear high-pitch frequencies. Can anyone explain to me what these are? I have tried researching it but I'm still not sure. Also, Can anyone relate to what I was feeling during the beginning of my mushroom trip? The swelling rising up and out of my head? I'd really appreciate any answers or helpful comments:) There has been much more happening but I wanted to keep this as short as possible lol.