Hello, I'm a 25 year old male and have recently realized that I have some innate psychic ability. However, I seem to be experiencing some sort of blockage in finding the best way to experience my gifts. I have always been an intuitive child, but was forced to take more of an adult role in my family life because of an alcoholic mother.
It was difficult for me to inhabit my imagination as much as I would have liked, but I still managed to maintain a good sense of creativity. I often have feelings where I just know what is wrong with someone, or I know what they are thinking and it can be difficult to prove to others.
I am studying to be a counselor and want to get my PHD in counseling psychology because of my ability to penetrate people's feelings so deeply. I have a hard time being in crowds or groups because I feel easily overwhelmed by others' energy, and I seem to just know how to solve problems or how to do things without ever formally seeking that information out.
I have been reading books on psychic development, visualization, and general psi phenomenon, and have this inner belief that I have stronger gifts that seem to be locked away. It appears the more I learn about it and the more I practice visualization exercises, clairvoyance, psychometry, etc, the more elusive it seems to be.
I've reached a point where I'm starting to doubt if I really have these abilities or if its wishful thinking. Does anyone know how to unlock or discover the full breadth of ones gifts and overcome the blockage? I don't know how to describe it other than a blockage, that can occasionally be overcome when I dream, or spend a while in meditation.
I'd like to develop my gifts and use it in a counseling setting but am becoming disheartened because I'm not progressing.