Hey there, I'm Sophie. I'm quite young and I've never believed in ghosts or psychic abilities or anything like that. My friends talk about things like this all the time and it really got me thinking.
My first memory of this was just strange to me. I had never really thought of it before. I had always been a good child really, but I have these moments where I loose my mind. I do something without even realizing it. My first memory of this was when I was seven years old. I slipped out of class and into the bathrooms, which were just by the classrooms. I clogged up the sinks with tissue and set the taps on full blast. The memory is patchy from there. I remember students were lined out on the school yard because of water flooding into the classrooms, then plumes of smoke coming from what was my classroom. It turns out a plug socket was faulty and caught fire. It may have seriously injured us in the class if we hadn't been outside.
So that had me thinking, could I have possibly known? That was probably the most serious incident of this but it's happened to me many times before in similar cases. During all of them I don't remember anything until shortly after.
So there's that, I've never really thought of it before. Lately though it feels like two people are screaming for dominance in my head. It sometimes feels like my head is going to spilt in two. Everything becomes clouded slowly.
While I'm at it I might as well mention my odd connection with animals, specifically mammals. I saved my first cat when she was a kitten. Her owner was abusing her so I broke in and took her during one of my 'insane' moments. My second cat is a shelter cat and I'm the only person he'll ever get close too (he's sleeping on my right arm right now). Whenever I see a cat or dog in the street they just kind of look at me. It's like they expect something. Only yesterday there was a kitten who couldn't be older than eight months old, and he just sat at my feet and looked at me. I picked him up and noticed a tag on his collar and he was quite a long way from home so I took him back to his owners. It turned out he had been lost for several days. If I pass by a cat they'll roll over and expose their stomachs which cats don't normally do to strangers. A dog could be barking but when they see me they are silent immediately. I've even had one dog start whimpering.
I guess a part of me wants to be told that I'm not crazy but I think that ship has sailed. Any ideas? I would like to be able to think about this a little clearer. I'm very new to all this after all. Any thought would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time.