My apologies if this gets a little longer than I meant for it to be. I'll try to keep it brief but detailed enough you will be able to understand what i'm talking about.
For several years now my parents have thought I was a little bit crazy. I never had imaginary friends, but in later years (around twelve years old) I would see people that were never there. I would refuse to stay in my room alone because there was one person I kept seeing that really scared me. He was a dark shadow of a man. I never really felt that he would hurt me, but just his presence scared younger me.
Fast forward a few years, and after a few rounds of anti depressants and pills to make the voices go away it seemed I actually was done seeing them. That only lasted a few months. I had terrible headaches and bad reactions to the medication. Shortly after this I moved to my aunt's house, and while there I went on my first ghost hunt with my uncle. It was an overnight stay at a haunted hotel and during the stay we got several interesting pieces of evidence. Every time I asked whoever may be there to please show up in a picture for me a dark shadow would appear in the photo I took. It did not matter what camera I used, where I took it, or how I held the camera. I was the only one who could get these sort of pictures. After that I was pushed, hard, by something that was in our room. During this there was a voice on our recorders asking why I was still standing. He didn't seem very happy with me. Other things happened throughout the night as well. I was poked by something and at one point something was restricting my air... Then when we went downstairs into the lobby I KNEW there was a little girl there. I'm not sure how, I just knew there was a child. And, sure enough, there was a girl's laughing on the recording.
I won't bother you with other details on that night. For several months after that nothing happened again. But recently even in my own home i'm seeing things and people. I hear babies cry, I see dark shadows walking around me, i've heard people talking... I know people have died here but i'm not sure if i'm crazy and imagining things or if I really could be a medium or something...
So, my two main questions are do you think i'm crazy or a medium? And if I am somehow a medium, is there a way to train or control this in any way?
Thank you for your time, and i'm sorry about the length.