I'm somewhat of a youngster. Young enough to be told I don't understand things, yet old enough to understand most things. I could say I think logically which really makes me struggle; yet I am the most creative person I know.
I read an article about people who have a highly developed precognitive ability to also have psi missing. This is when whatever you think is wrong, completely the opposite.
I've always, and I mean always, can guess whatever number your thinking of. Such as when a teacher would say pick a number between 1 and 10, that group picks first. I would always get those exact.
Just as guessing how much jelly beans are in a jar.
Sometimes my friends would be like, guess what I'm thinking of. My logic kicks in then. You're a doofus so probably, something random. But, somehow I can guess those too from my gut. Or not?
What I'm trying to say is I can basically read people's minds when they are only thinking of one thing and one thing only, right?
I can read body language and read mouths so I can get an idea of what people are gesturing. Only, I'm lost until my precognition kicks in.
I spoke to my dad about this and he said, "You must get it from me. I sometimes do the same thing." He then told me that he never met his grandfather and feels as if he watches over him. I feel the same way about my grandfather I've never met. I was told that many of the relatives on my dad's side have the same situation. So really, is it precognition or connection with spirits?
I thought on it for a while then realized. How come my gut is wrong a lot? Psi missing. My gut is wrong when it should be right, though I'm right when I don't try and I'm relaxed. I've heard that being at peace with your inner self really helps. So it can't be spiritual connections. My grandfather would never make me wrong unless he was giving me a life lesson. I would hope.
Here's another one of my situations. I'll be at basketball practice. And I do something wrong. The coach gets mad and my teammates are kind of annoyed I don't get it right. I can feel these tears swelling up. I'm not sad or mad or embarrassed or anything that ever makes me cry. I feel as if these are someone else's emotions inside of me. But, then a teammate accidentally scratches my hand. It hurts so badly and bleeds for a good hour or so with pressure on it. I'm concerned whether that was someone else's feelings or, me, sensing the near future and already getting some emotion out.
One time, my teacher was like NO THAT'S NOT HOW YOU DO IT! I was a little frightened at first, then I realized you are my favorite teacher... You feel bad for me. I felt tears swelling up in my eyes again. Was it her emotions? Yes, I am sensitive, but I don't think that's it.
My brother one night was crying, out of nowhere I started bawling for the next 24 hours even after he went to school all happy. I know for sure he caused an emotional connection or whatever.
Sometimes. I just have to say this. I have dreams more like nightmares, but they don't scare me. I have these horrible, worst scenario dreams. Sometimes they will be about me in the future or about someone else and their possible future. It's like I see a parallel universe, the dreams are so vivid, but none have yet to come true.
Sometimes I get a dream about someone else's emotions.
Once my friend texted me "I'm so pissed at my brother."
My dream was me being mad at my brother. Or I think it was me. I never saw myself it was first person... Though it would be weird to see my friend as Indiana Jones whipping my brother into a closet, which is what the dream was about. I went to sleep in a perfectly happy situation with my brother. So, any connection. Possibly?
I also have different point of view dreams. I think they mean different things. Like third person dreams are usually happy and first person ones are like anything, but that. Third person ones are straight to the point. First person dreams are very detailed and I feel emotion. Just a coincidence? Lately, I've been taking Melatonin before I go to sleep. Melatonin is what makes you naturally go to sleep, when I take this my dreams are much more vivid.
I believe this is my last thing. Technology. I will think of a song turn on the radio and it's the exact song. I've done this plenty of times and I mean plenty. So what, right? Well, sometimes I will be singing a song.
"Eeevverrryyy Rooossseee Haaasss-"
Turns on the radio
"It's thorns. Just like every cowboy sings a sad, sad song..."
Sorry, it's the only song I could think of lyrics for and I'm not even sure if they're right. Now I have predicted the exact position of a song on a radio. This freaks me out. I've done this a total of 6 times. Any help? I spoke to my friend about it and she said she's done the same thing... Is this normal? Is any of this healthy?
And then... This freaks me out the most. I was tying my shoe in the middle of the gym floor and I swear my leg vibrated. I just shrugged it off. I looked up at the clock a few minutes later it was 4:49. Later, when I went to check my phone 4:44 I have two messages. 4:46 one message. I was like HOLY COW!
I know that seems kind of corny, but it's true. To be honest it happens kind of regularly. Any suggestions?
Okay, this is the last thing. I get a buzzing in my ear. I did some research and supposedly it's a disease usually found in elders. But, I've noticed when the buzzing is in my left ear something sad is happening, but within ten minutes or so it is the happiest time of the week. Once, at semi-finals, my team was down by 7 points, my left ear starting buzzing, but before the end of the game, we were up by a good 30 or so.
Now, when the buzzing is in my right ear, which it hardly ever is, something really, really devastating happens. I got the right ear ringing noise, my friend called me crying that her dog died. Another time, I got the buzzing and I went to school the next day my friend said her parents are getting a divorce.
So, it might not be that devastating. But, it's kind of intense stuff.
Well, thanks for reading all this. If you have anything helpful please, please tell me. I'm still young enough to have time to develop any potential abilities. I would like to be all that I can be.