When I was young, I started having strange dreams of flying and telekinesis. Many of them were lucid dreams but I was not controlling my surroundings. Every time I would wake up, my hands and feet were vibrating at an alarming rate. I also felt energy all over the place. Sometimes I would try to get out of bed, and when I thought I hit the ground my feet were still in the air.
The day I first discovered I had these abilities, I was extremely raged out and angry. My eyes changed strange colors, and my skin was hot as fire. The reason for this is not important, but I was screaming and waving my arms and things started flying across the room. This shocked me so much that I calmed down immediately. Ever since then I have been able to manipulate energy, I kept hearing peoples thoughts whether I liked it or not (it stopped) , I can mentally teleport, with concentration I can influence outcomes of things, I am terrible at my telekinesis power.
Also another thing is that lately I have been able to talk inside a few people's minds and also make people see things I want them to see. For a while now, I feel as if I am stuck in the same level. I have tried countless times to excel in my abilities, but for some reason I feel like I cannot excel. I need help to excel in my powers. I have also felt as if I am some sort of Alien or a hybrid from another planet. When I first had these abilities I started seeing symbols in purple. They look like an unknown language with triangles on them. I am although convinced that I am not an alien.
I really have no idea how to get stronger at my powers. I have met people who were born with powers before but they say it is like a growth spurt and gets substantially stronger when your brain is fully developed. When I was younger the majority of telekinetic experiences happened involuntarily and I would know this happens because my hands and right lower back part of the brain vibrates with energy and Lately, I have been having empathic connections with people. I like this one girl a lot. Even before I met her, and when I came in contact with her. It's like I knew everything about her but it's back up in my head and I can't really say it out loud.
For some reason, it's like I knew and forgot in a split second. She has a boyfriend whom she loves he is also a friend of mine. Every time I am near them. I feel like my skin is clawing itself. I feel like my spine changed from normal to having titanium razor blades cutting up my insides. And they get bigger and bigger. I feel like my heart is being hollowed out. Literally. I am not joking. I had this hurting in my forehead I teared for the first time in 8 years. Over a girl I met for the second time but I knew her for 7 months. I don't know what to do. I feel like my head is banging itself on a brick wall.
Not to mention the fact that I have physical pain along with it. I just. I don't know what to do. I feel dead inside and I know when her and her boyfriend do "things" and I see the entire thing, And I become unconscious. And wake up after. I feel like I am being stabbed by knives every time What do I do? I feel so powerful. My telekinetic abilities feel like my primary nature. Lately iv been able to roll things off of peoples hands. And make things vibrate. I have been told by certain people who can read people That I was very powerful. And to not snap out of anger because I would start doing things I never would thought id be doing.
I have vowed to stay true to myself and who I am but. For some reason am so weak, But I feel like I could gets something from the fridge if I wanted to. I am confused on this. Many people ridicule me and say I don't have it. I know I do I have a lot of faith that I do and I've seen myself do it. I am not sure. I just feel like I am supposed to learn it like it is some type of destiny of mine. I am sorry I am just really confused on how this works. Any info would be appreciated.
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