I am 25 y.o this year, I having this problem of absorbing others emotional since young age, for example, I got backache and headache, feel gassy in the stomach whenever I stuck in crowded places like shopping mall, casino, etc. Also, when I went out with a friend who he has problem with him, after listening to his problems, I got home exhausted and almost fall sick. Another significant case is I was in the same room with a heart broken girl, even though she looks happy and cheerful but I felt so much sad. Friends and family love hanging out with me as they said I always have good energy with me but in fact I felt drained spending time with some of the people, most of them are so open up to me, even if I do not want them to.
I came from a healthy family background, so I think my energies are pure and positive, but I just don't know the way to maintain and keep it with myself, as when I hang out with low energy people, I feel I exchange my energy with them, I took away their negative one, they took away mine. It just so frustrated.
And recently I just realize my situation got worse when I think I fall in love for someone, when comes to love, it sure involve more different kind of emotions, I might thought I am overly thinking but whenever I was near to this man, I just turned out to be not myself, and cried so often, at first I thought it was me myself who being overly obsessed with him, but the fact is, he isn't in the same country of mine, so when I finally got back to my own country, my mood turn back to normal, so I guess I can say most of my negative energies are came from him... Additional information, he is an emotional broken man, he seem friendly with everyone but the fact is he is distancing himself from getting close with people. I know my problem of absorbing others energy, so I used to avoid negative people all the time but this time I know I got myself into a real mess that I can't leave him aside, he is the only person that I ever feel that I know him before, and he did asked the same thing, whether he ever met me before, why is the reason I look so familiar to him, for now we aren't lover, but I just have the feeling that I can't leave him aside, I can't stop myself caring for him, when I look at him, I have to hold my tears, I have no idea the tears re from me, or from him. His hidden emotions are all flowing towards me, or maybe I imagine myself. I wandering is it something to do with my past lives?
If this is really what he hides beneath him, I want to help but for now I can't really help myself out, my emotional changes so fast and got affected so easily.
Sometimes I would think that I being over think or being dramatic or having too much imagination with me that brings out all these emotional about others. I'm getting confused that I can't differentiate thoughts and feelings anymore, it might turn out to be me thinking too much that create the emotional. Why am I being so weird and strange? I also have dreams about something that turns out to be true. Ever since meeting this man, I feel like my ability being awaken, I really wish to know what can I do to enhance about this or at least not losing my true self... I am getting confused with my own feelings and feelings from other people.
I really need help!