My names Amanda and I'm 22 years old. I would say for most of my life I had this overwhelming feeling of not belonging. I felt like I saw the world completely different than most people. I would feel emotions way more intensely than most. About a month ago something strange started happening to me. So I'm going to list so stuff and I would love to get some feed back. Because I'm not really sure what's happening or what to make of all this. I'm thinking that I'm experiencing some sort of an awakening?
This all started out only happening at night then would go away during the day. I would get this weird vibration in my left foot. It felt like someone was either rubbing my foot, pulling my big toe, poking me with a needle or tickling me with a feather. Now it's this constant vibrating/tingling feeling that never goes away. I can also literally feel pressure or vibrations in my chakras. Even when I am not meditating. (Which prior to this happening I had no idea what chakras were until I did some research to try and find answers to what's going on with me.)
On top of that I started to feel energy, I don't know if they are my guides or angels or just spirits. Sometimes it feels like there is 2 or 3 warm vibrating balls of energy walking back and forth on my bed, or laying near my head. Most nights I can feel a human type figure form behind me; giving off body heat and vibrations, who will either rub my back until I fall asleep or will wrap their arm around my stomach and hold on to me. Sometimes these energies will go through the mattress and blankets in order to touch me. They sometimes wipe away my tears when I'm crying and literally take the sadness out of my body. On a couple of occasions I felt this clammy hand form under mine and they would push their finger tips against mine (in a playful manner, sort of saying like hey I'm here with you right now). I always feel this hand being placed over my heart chakra as well. But the point is I'm always feeling hands touching me all the time. No matter where I am or what I am doing. Last night it felt like there was about 14 people placing their hands on different parts of my body. The hands don't feel the same, some will be cold some will be warm, some vibrate others don't. I don't know what they want, are they doing this to comfort me or try to get my attention?
Something else that happens is on occasion I can hear voices. A woman's voice who said I love you, and a mans voice who said kill. Or I can hear someones voice, as if they are sitting right next to me but I can't make out a word they are saying.
One morning upon awaking I heard a mans voice clear as day say, " Bow down to the other side. Amanda everything is going to be okay, you are going to be okay. Trust what is going on. Your body is going through a transition right now. (He continued to talk but some of it was muffled and I think this is what he said next) Your life's mission (Maybe transformation?) is 65% done." He continued to talk but I had trouble hearing so I asked him to repeat what he said twice. He let out this sigh and said repeat after me. " My names Amanda and I am on a life's mission, I was unaware of this mission until this year". I said it and then the voice went away. He left me with this impression of a "camp counselor type", I don't know why but it was just the gut feeling I got from it. (Also my solar plexus chakra is constantly vibrating all the time.)
The next thing is I can see orbs, sometimes flashes of light out of the corner of my eye. One night out of the corner of my eye I saw this person in a bright white robe walking towards my bed, I freaked out and turned to look at this person but they disappeared instantly. Or so I thought, I continued to look in that direction and I could see swirls of transparent energy in a human figure. Freaked out I got up and called on Archangel Michael for protection and again out of the corner of my eye I saw this person in a white robe walk into my room. Granted I don't see this stuff all the time, only when I really focus on it or ask for a sign.
Many other things have happened, like knowing things before they happened. Being able to pick up on what someone is feeling (even via text, I don't even have to be near this person to get this gut feeling of their emotions.) Another thing is I keep seeing the word healer in my head. (My mom is very sick and lost complete feeling in her right shoulder blade, after rubbing her back one night she regained feeling. Even after several doctors said she will never ever have feeling there again.) (Also When I was little I would ALWAYS have these dreams of having "magical" abilities that would cure peoples illnesses. Never did I know how significance of these dreams until now.)
I would always question why I was placed here on earth, up until a month ago I had no idea (was sort of drifting through my entire life). But things are starting to get clearer for me. Since this started happening I realized that I won't be the one who finds the cure to cancer or invent some crazy amazing invention. But I feel like I'm here to sort of help people, to show them the beauty in life. To help people rise above the negative situations in life and focus on the positives. I just have this overwhelming urge to give back and help however many people as I can.
So my question is, does anyone know what's going on with me? Is this really an awakening? All this stuff going on, is it going to get stronger or fade away at some point? I mean it feels like its getting stronger since I've become more aware of it and stopped fearing it. But will it last?
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But I would love to hear if anyone has any advice or input, perhaps a similar situation! Please share it with me!