Am I Suppose To Be Channeling For Dead People?

I'm 28 years old I have 2 children and am quite a grounded and rational person. Since the age of 5 I have always suffered from anxiety but learnt to just ignore the feeling and get on with my day. The last year I am starting to question wether this is just anxiety. I always feel like some one is here ESP the last year I feel like I'm being watched ESP at night the anxiety is really over whelming I don't want to get un dressed or sleep with my body out of the cover. About 12 months ago I was in bed I could see figures in the room made up of the little light speckles you see when you close your eyes but I could tell which ones were black men a blonde man and worst of all one was hovering over my daughter I was not scared though my partner was in the bed aswell and I told him everything I was seeing he just thought I was nuts and told me to go to sleep a week later I see one again hovering over me whilst in bed this has only happened twice but I have always been afraid of the dark as a child I could never explain wry I was so scared because I couldn't explain the nightmare 25 years later it dawned on me it's the man made up of dots. Theese figures I see where the nightmare I used to have then it occurred to me maybe this was not a nightmare maybe I was seeing these figures then that is wry I hate the dark now. Since having this thought my mind has been so confused the anxiety I'm feeling of being watched (am I actually being watched or sensing a ghost maybe) other things are also bothering me I hear things really loud a bus driving past my car sounds like a really loud notice next to my ear I hear things so clearly that are really far away which sometimes frightens me, I have a tendencie to random think some one is pregnant never a close friend but a friend of a friend and they always are, I also tend to follow signs I think they have meanings and I'm suppose to follow it cause its a sign and I no I'm being shown it I can feel it in my heart just don't know by who. The last few months I feel like I'm suppose to be doing something I feel more anxious more watched and at night I find myself talking in my head to what ever I think is there I don't get no reply nor do I expect one but I'm so convinced they can here me and they'll go away so I can sleep. I'm also In a new house but I feel it stronger than ever I have tarot cards I am defo an ameture but I feel really drawn to them. Has any one got any advice has any one seen the figures made up of dots? Am I just anxious and need to relax any advice is good advice. Thanks for reading x ps can I also add an example a few weeks back I had to go downstairs at night when I stood at the top of the stairs I said to my self il run down and quickly turn on the light at the bottom but then I thought " nah your not gona let me switch the light on something will happen" well I ran down the stairs switched the light on the hole mains cut out I was standing in darkness I was so scared I ran bk up the stairs telling my partner I knew it was gona do that his toying with me that is one of a few examples where I think I'm being played with a bit. I don't know if I'm being haunted, paranoid or they want help or am I suppose to be talking to it