From when I was younger until the present I have felt everyone's energy and emotions. It wasn't so bad when I was younger, but the older I get the harder it gets to block out. I feel peoples emotions as if they were my own. I try really hard to block them out, but I cant. When I do, it piles itself up and comes out all at once. If I hear a story on the news and someone's crying on the TV, I will cry then and there. If someone is hurt and trying to hide their emotion and swallow it down trying not to show it, I will feel it even more, even if I have no idea who the person is. I get so stressed out from other peoples vibes that I thought for a while it was anxiety, but even if I had an amazing day and I'm exposed to someone who is going through a hard time, my positivity will crash immediately. It's hard to explain, but it's not anxiety. I have been having a harder time going into public places, crowded restaurants and bars are the worst. I feel like everyone is talking to me at the same time without saying any words, it's exhausting.
I've also had multiple encounters with spirits since I was a child. As well as dreaming the future. I cannot control either and it only happens once in a blue moon. It happened a lot more when I was younger (dreaming the future), than it does now and the spirits come when they want to. That part freaks me out so I try and not embrace it. I have some pretty crazy dreams each night, like just random things I cannot make heads or tail of normally. Most nights I'm aware that I'm dreaming during them and sometimes I can even call the shots as to what happens in my dreams. But every once in a while I will have this super vivid, life like, don't even know you're asleep dream of a person that gives me a message, or a specific event. Some of the people I haven't even truly known personally, but after telling my family about the dream I find out it's someone's relative that has been gone for years that I've never met. I've seen/spoken to dead family members mostly, a family friends boyfriend that committed suicide, and strangers. I've predicted deaths, sexes of children at birth, injuries, illness, pop quizzes and other things that I had dreamed of.
I also have a knack of thinking about something randomly a day to a couple minutes before it happens. For instance multiple times I have been singing a song that pops up in my head and gotten in my car, turned the radio on and the song is on and at the exact point that I am singing it. I will randomly think of a person the day before I run into them by accident, or think of a movie or TV show and then turn on the TV and bam there it is.
I'm not claiming I'm psychic at all, because like I said I can't control it, it's hit or miss but it's nice to know that there are other people out there that are experiencing the same thing.
And just a disclaimer: I don't do drugs, never have, may have a beer or glass of wine once a week at best.
I just don't understand why I take one look at someone and then immediately feel what they do, I'm starting to hate it, any techniques for dealing with large crowds would be helpful, I have tried anxiety meds, they do nothing, it's not anxiety, I'm starting to become a home body, my boyfriend doesn't understand it and it's frustrating for the both of us. Thank you