First I want to thank my boyfriend for showing me this site. I thought I was alone in all this. I have had these attacks for just over 14yrs now. Like the other stories I have read on here it started off with just sleeping and waking to find a tall shadow at the end of the couch I was asleep on. I didn't think much of it, thinking it was all part of a dream I was in. I could never see the face, just the shadow.
Then it just kept appearing at the end of my bed, the couch where ever I was sleeping. As these experiences started to occur more often is when the noise would come with the shadow. A strange noise, a screeching noise from it. Like the other stories I would hear the mumbling of voices but only ever see one shadow. Like the other stories I too was paralyzed, I couldn't move no matter how hard I tried. I would constantly try and wake myself up, but couldn't. I would yell, scream to anyone and anything to help me but no one would come. Then I found just the slightest of movement would wake me.
That's when I started to get scared a lot, when I couldn't move, I couldn't yell. That's when it started to get physical. When I would try to yell it would close my mouth, I could feel something over my mouth and it hurt. When I would wake I would be short of breath and feel just a short pain around my mouth. Then the pain would go away. I would look around the room and see nothing. I would try to go back to sleep, but pray that I don't have that experience again.
As the years went on the physical attacks got worse. The shadow that was one when first started is now three to four. I don't see bodies with some of them just heads, over me. I have found that if I lie on my back that is when the attacks happen. I lie on my back and go into a deep sleep, almost like a trance and then I feel the grabbing of my clothes and it throws me out of bed. It is now throwing me up against the wall. I don't go through the wall I slam into the wall, the ceiling and its hard. Its like its trying to pull me through the wall but I can't go through and its now constant. It has thrown me out the window but I float there and then it hits me. When these attacks happen I am lying on my back straight. My arms, legs and body are straight or with my arms crossed over my chest. I now try and have a leg bent so I can make that slight movement to wake me up. I always try to sleep on my side to stop the attacks and it has worked quite well so I thought, until last night!
I was on my side thinking that I was safe and could sleep but this time it grabbed me on my side and took me up and it hurt me bad! It squeezed me so hard I could hardly move, I screamed to my boyfriend but he couldn't hear me. But, and I am embarrassed to say that this is not the same one that keeps attacking me, this is a new one and dangerous one. This one hurt me, this one sexually attacked me. This one laughed at me as he was hurting me. This one scares the hell out of me. I have never told anyone of these attacks.
I have a new boyfriend that I felt I could finally trust to tell and the new attack last night has made me feel that this new thing is angry that I told my boyfriend. I felt it in the way he squeezed me so hard. I felt it in the laughing at me in pain it did. I felt it as I screamed to my boyfriend to wake up that it covered my mouth and squeezed my mouth so hard I was crying. I have no idea how I woke from this latest attack, but I do know I was so drained and hurt. I know that when I tried to wake my boyfriend up he couldn't hear me. My boyfriend understands and I'm glad as he has had some of these attacks too before.
My biggest fear now is that whatever it was last night will go after him. It spat vengeance on my boyfriend when I was yelling for him. I felt that! My boyfriend is going to be ok? I don't think so, I think this new one is here to hurt me real bad and I'm scared of this one. I really am. I saw the face of this one and its eyes are black. Really black and I don't know what to do, I really don't. The other ones were not as hateful as this new one.