Around a year ago, I started to look into psychic abilities and terminology and got really interested in it. Since I was little, I would hear whispers and see shadows moving around me. I never felt threatened really, however. I told my mom but she thought it was just my imagination, since I was a little girl after all. But then I told my grandmother and she told me about how the same thing used to happen to her, and that no matter what I shouldn't ever be afraid because then I would have a weak point and I could be hurt.
The first time I tried to communicate with a spirit, it was with automatic writing, and after the fact, I asked my nana if she knew anyone by the spirit's name (the spirit claimed to have known my nana, to which I thought true because they lived in the same state and neighborhood). I didn't tell her I was referring to a deceased person, so I was very excited when she told me it was her ex-husband's sister who was raped and murdered, which is exactly what Spirit told me about.
Ever since I was born, my mom says I was an accelerated learner and extremely creative. I started walking within a month after crawling, and I started talking, reading, and writing between one and two. I have scholarships for writing and visual arts waiting for me, and I have always gone to magnet and gifted schools. Here are the reasons that that worries me:
1. Outside of elementary school, no one in my family has ever signed me up for any school, yet the schools I have gone to have been elite and very hard to get into.
2. I have never applied for a scholarship.
3. People seem to "know" me. I meet people who hug me like they have known me for years, and the things that some of them have said, no one has ever known.
I tried sorting through this whole...situation, I guess. But nothing seems real. It feels like all of this is just going to fade away one day and leave me to face nothing, which terrifies me above all.